This sounds so familiar, Tessie. I'm bipolar. I didn't get a diagnosis till I was in my 40's although I knew something wasn't right way back in my teens. Battled that suicide thing even way back then. Finally got some help then, in my 40's. Took about two years to find the right meds. I'm in my 60's now and stable. These last 20 years have been the best years of my life. Not the easiest, but the best, because I finally feel I have control over ME. Some of those years have been a chaotic mess, lol, but I no longer feel I am losing my mind, and that's worth something! Get help whenever and however you can, Kiddo. It's worth it. YOU'RE worth it!
