I just processed my first chicken. I feel like Lady Macbeth, but instead of blood, it's the SMELL I can't get off my hands. The chicken in question was the gross-butt 3 year old RIR from this thread . I'll include a photo and description of the organs. You tell me if she's ok to eat! First of all, let me begin by telling you that I hate handling raw chicken. It's a bit of a joke between the BF and myself. I can touch and cook most anything, but when it comes to cooking chicken - it gives me the heebiejeebies. So why on Earth would I want to process a perfectly good chicken? Right now, I'm asking myself the same question. I will tell you this, though: First time chicken-killings should be done on young chickens. I could use adult language to tell you how it went. Yeah, it was THAT good. Firstly, my upside down orange construction cone did not have a hole cut large enough and when I put that poor bird in there, she kind of got stuck. She got very still and I thought I killed her right then! Shaking, I pulled her out, apologized and put her back in her holding box. I proceeded to cut and rip the cone until it was larger. I put the bird back in and tried my best to slice her where I should have. I honestly couldn't tell if I went through her windpipe or not. There wasn't any gurgling, but the blood didn't flow as fast as I would have hoped. I tried making another slice, but there was lots of moving around at that point and it was only me doing this. At that point, I almost threw up. I held her head while she bled out until I was certain she was dead. Other than fish, I had never before killed an animal. I will admit, it was a little bit traumatic for me! I had water boiling in the kitchen and brought it outside. It was over 150 degrees so I cooled it down by adding some hose water. I had some dishwashing detergent in there and a little bit of salt from when I was boiling the water. I figured the salt would help it get to a higher temperature. I hope I didn't do anything wrong. When it hit 150, I put the bird in - HEAD AND ALL! That kind of disturbed me. In fact, the whole thing disturbed me! Her butt was gross. It had poo stuck to it and looked a little swollen. I may have burnt my palm a little bit with the water, but I didn't care at that point. I just wanted to get it done. I swished and checked the big feathers and I did it some more. When I felt they were coming out easy enough, I pulled the bird out and plucked it. It really wasn't that hard getting the feathers off. Next time, I think I'll move quicker. I may have had the water too hot because it kind of felt like the first part of the skin was coming off in areas - unless that is normal. There's still what looks like normal skin on the bird. Then came the worst most craptastic processing you've ever seen. I read through frugal's post so many times, I thought I had it down. Nope. No I didn't. The whole thing went right out the window. Let me also tell you that the inside of a 3 year old chicken looks a HECK OF A LOT different than these pretty insides of the young birds I've seen so many photos and videos of. There were things in there that I hadn't seen in photos, including what looked like several egg yolks. I didn't know what I was doing. I chopped off the head first - not in the right spot as I basically had to saw through the neck. I then tried to take off the legs. When I have seen this done in videos, it's so easy and quick. Nope - not me. I first puncture myself with the very large spur on this girl and then I begin to cut through bone. Yes, I know that's wrong. I tried finding the middle of the joint, and I believe I cut some tendons because I could feel what seemed like rubber bands snap, but it wasn't easy getting them suckers off. I then tried cutting the guts out by being careful and to not puncture anything. Her butt was still covered in poo. I hope I didn't taint the meat, because after the production of getting the guts out, I tried cutting more away before slicing off the tail and cut through something that let out a dark greenish liquid that seemed to have very small greenish solids. Was it poo? Who knows! I quickly lifted the bird to not get any on it (there was a tiny bit) and I hosed it off as well as my cutting board. I was surprised as to how the insides looked. I've never seen the inside of a chicken in person. I thought I was going to save things inside, but I really couldn't bear it. The liver, or what I think is the liver seemed to have pale white spots on it. Is that age or an illness? Ok, so the really red spongy looking stuff on the bottom is what part? Then we go up a little bit to the left to see something covered in fat. Is that the heart? This bird really has a TON of fat; much more than I'm used to seeing in these young Cornish X photos. Now as we move up some more we see something large and flatish and maroonish looking. That's the liver, right? If you look closely, you can see the pale white dots on it. I could try and blow the pic up if you like. It's from my iPhone and I was trying to be quick. You can see the white on the lower right portion of that object. OK, so I finally get all the guts out. I was really shaking at this point. I kept trying to tell myself that I just bought the bird out of the store and was trying to clean it. lol. I then put it in the first ice cooler with a bunch of sea salt. It sat there for at least 40 minutes. I walked the guts and blood back to our woods and then came back and cleaned everything up. I swear, even though I've used soap twice - everything still has an odor. Even the stainless steel knife smells. I stink, by the way. After I was done cleaning, I moved the bird to the second ice chest. It's sitting there right now, waiting for me to put it in a bag and stick it in the fridge to rest. So - Do you think she's safe to eat? ps. If you've read through all of this - you're amazing. pps. I do still plan on raising my meat birds. I think that butchering the young birds will be easier. I'm also not planning on killing the Barred Rock that came with her. After seeing the yolks inside of the RIR - I think the old BR is going to have to live out her last years with my flock. I'll post in another section of BYC about properly quarantining her and how to introduce her to everyone else.