Just been a rough one with one thing after another but the worst was the totally unexpected death of a7 month old girl goat this morning who was my pet. Her name was Blue Bonnet. She was the first born of my oldest milk goat and a beautiful solid white Goat, such a sweetie pie and always playing and so glad to see me!!!! She was bottle fed and always so gentle...I cannot seem to stop crying about it. She was just fine yesterday and when I went outside at 7:15 am she was on the ground thrashing around and eyes rolling and died in my arms. It was not a seizure...It was her last few minutes of life...She just died totally unexpectedly. She was so precious to me and I just cannot tell you how sad that this made me and my family. I'm grateful that I was there the last few minutes of her life but I'm in shock and sadness. She died within 20 minutes of my being with her. No vet office was opened. There would be no way any vet could have saved her at that point. I am going to have a necropsy done to see what happened. There were no signs of injury, no trauma... It's a total mystery to me. We had customers on the farm today for their last minute holiday purchases.....I barely held back the tears and could not talk much to them.... Now that the customers are all gone, I'm just a basket of tears.......I feel so badly as I know this is a celebrating time for us but the more I try to stop the tears, the more I cry. I've so looked forward to Christmas for weeks for the importance it has for our family but also to be with family and friends, but I really just want to be away from everyone and have a major cry.... So what do you do to stop crying?