We (hubby and I both) worked in a mechanic shop in Kansas City, then as now, and one of the other mechanics had a news radio station tuned in. As soon as the first report of a plane hitting the first tower came in, we all sat down our noisy tools, and walked over to listen, or hollered at others, so they'd do the same. It started only minutes before our first break was scheduled, but we stopped, anyway. We couldn't NOT stop.
(Not to be weird, but the first thing that came to my mind was that it was Bin Laden. Even before the report of the 2nd tower being hit. Not sure why it did, but I guess my mind just put the puzzle pieces together right away, remembering the USS Cole attack not too long ago... I was pretty freaked out when it turned out I was right!)
I will never forget the almost shell-shocked looks on our faces as we looked at each other for support, and listened to the reports as the 2nd plane hit, the third hit the pentagon, and the 4th went down... every time we heard all there was to hear at the time, and went back to work, it seemed like there was a new report of another plane crashing, then another. One or another of us would start yelling, "there's another one!", and we'd drop things to go listen. ..very darn little got done that day.
As we would go outside that day, at lunch or 2nd break, and look up, to not see so much as a jet trail, many of us got goosebumps. Kansas City usually has some pretty busy airspace. That sensation, and the total silence from the skies, was to linger for awhile, yet.
I remember, in the following month, even beyond, watching a plane go across the sky, I would silently tell it to stay up there where it belonged, not to crash into anything or anyone, and arrive safely where it was going.
I remember my anger at having my entire world-view corrupted, torn apart, sullied. I remember my wishes for revenge, followed the next moment by my feelings of shame about such violent thoughts. I also remember shaking uncontrollably as I watched media coverage of it that evening, and the following days. The nearest thing that had ever done close to that much to me, emotionally, was watching the Challenger disaster (STS-51-L) live on tv. (I still can't see video of either incident without a renewed flood of emotion.) The same type of shock, only magnified a hundredfold.
I regret that we went to war with not only one country, but another that was unrelated to the attack, in the decade since. I regret that we've lost so many more soldiers over there since then than the number of souls that died that day. I regret that so many would hate an entire religion for the violence of a few radicals. I regret, too - suprisingly - the quick death of the mastermind, himself. I would have rather seen a trial - as bad a security nightmare as that would have been - instead, followed by an execution. darn glad he's dead, though.
It's been hard hearing Taps played many times today. I've seen the Budweiser commercial twice today. Averted my eyes from the tv multiple times today. I've gone through way too many tissues. Glad the day is over.