Witchcraft thread

[dirkandlorie]

Welcome Hollowofwisps, please tell me they loved and nurtured you in other ways!

 

[HollowOfWisps]

Welcome Hollowofwisps, please tell me they loved and nurtured you in other ways!

No, I was told I “would never be loved” and “when I look at you I feel nothing”. My dad even told me at one point “If I was God I would wipe you from the face of the earth”. My family used me as their scape goat to the point that anything bad that happened somehow must have been me doing something. Every time my parents would get into a fight afterward my mom would look at me and say “You, you did this! God told me that you were trying to destroy my marriage!” My mother actually had me convinced for the longest time that I was ugly and I would be genuinely confused when people would tell me I was beautiful. She also used to tell me that I embarrassed her in front of her friends and that I was “backwards” (I am high functioning autistic). That’s just scratching surface.

 

[Sally PB]

@HollowOfWisps, I wish I could do this in person.

 

[dirkandlorie]

I don't know where people find those hugs emojis, but agree that you need some big old hugs!!!!!

 

[dirkandlorie]

No, I was told I “would never be loved” and “when I look at you I feel nothing”. My dad even told me at one point “If I was God I would wipe you from the face of the earth”. My family used me as their scape goat to the point that anything bad that happened somehow must have been me doing something. Every time my parents would get into a fight afterward my mom would look at me and say “You, you did this! God told me that you were trying to destroy my marriage!” My mother actually had me convinced for the longest time that I was ugly and I would be genuinely confused when people would tell me I was beautiful. She also used to tell me that I embarrassed her in front of her friends and that I was “backwards” (I am high functioning autistic). That’s just scratching surface.

So glad you moved away from that debilitating environment!! Do you now know your worth, and how strong and capable you are? You made the best decision removing negative energy from your life, be careful not to let anyone near you again that doesn't believe you should be on a pedestal!

 

[Bawkbok]

No, I was told I “would never be loved” and “when I look at you I feel nothing”. My dad even told me at one point “If I was God I would wipe you from the face of the earth”. My family used me as their scape goat to the point that anything bad that happened somehow must have been me doing something. Every time my parents would get into a fight afterward my mom would look at me and say “You, you did this! God told me that you were trying to destroy my marriage!” My mother actually had me convinced for the longest time that I was ugly and I would be genuinely confused when people would tell me I was beautiful. She also used to tell me that I embarrassed her in front of her friends and that I was “backwards” (I am high functioning autistic). That’s just scratching surface.

I can't imagine how or why any parent would say such terrible things to their child. I'm sorry this happened to you.
You obviously learned how to stand on your own, despite such hatred. Hopefully, you have loving supportive people in your life now.
You offer much value here. I read your posts regularly. So grateful you are part of this community.

 

[HollowOfWisps]

I can't imagine how or why any parent would say such terrible things to their child. I'm sorry this happened to you.
You obviously learned how to stand on your own, despite such hatred. Hopefully, you have loving supportive people in your life now.
You offer much value here. I read your posts regularly. So grateful you are part of this community.

Your kindness is greatly appreciated I am now living my best life with my wonderful husband and two amazing boys in our quiet country cottage on our farm. I also get to focus on my art and spend time with my horses every day (both have been therapy for me).

 

[ShrekDawg]

Your kindness is greatly appreciated I am now living my best life with my wonderful husband and two amazing boys in our quiet country cottage on our farm. I also get to focus on my art and spend time with my horses every day (both have been therapy for me).

 

[Bawkbok]

Your kindness is greatly appreciated I am now living my best life with my wonderful husband and two amazing boys in our quiet country cottage on our farm. I also get to focus on my art and spend time with my horses every day (both have been therapy for me).

It sounds like you live a life of pleasure and tranquility. That is wonderful.
I hope to be blessed with horses some day in this lifetime.

 

[RebelFord81]