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I'm gonna have to be. I don't have any other choice.

Just feels like I'm getting hit with everything at once: death of husband, death of semi-valuable hen, death of chicks, funeral home lost DH's wedding ring, I got called for federal jury duty, I went to register for graduate classes at EMU online and I have to re-enroll and that won't go through until next week, end of marking period, proficiency testing, parent teacher conferences, trying to get the new coop built, trying to work on the horse trailer, had the starter go out in the big truck and the water pump will need to be replaced before much longer, stepdaughter called and left a message saying she wants all the stuff her dad promised her but didn't say exactly what it WAS, SIL [who lives in Florida and maybe only calls 4x a year] calling and sobbing that she can't go on with her life since her brother died and she doesn't know how she'll live without him, etc ... which got me to the breaking point "YOU don't know how you'll get along without him?! YOUR day to day life hasn't changed and YOU aren't the one sleeping alone! YOU didn't find him dead and YOU didn't help financially or emotionally with funeral and probate costs and YOU didn't come up for the funeral. YOU are retired and didn't have to deal with a sub or lesson plans or catching up on grading and grades and dealing with the looks of a whole community who know he died and the constant question 'How are you doing?' but accompanied by such a look of sadness and sympathy that you can't help but cry." I did apologize to her and said it was the grief talking, but it just irritated me that she can't get on with her life when I HAVE TO at least for my daughter and animals' sake (although at the rate everything around me is dying, all my animals should be dead by summer.)

Thanks, I feel a little better.

My mother-in-law died a few years ago and right after she died my father-in-law, who never raises his voice, went off at me like that when he was telling me about something and all I had said was "I know". (he went off on a you-don't-know-how-it-feels" rant) And I don't, but I came very close to losing my husband when I was 6 months pregnant with our first child...all those nights he was in the hospital killed me. (we didn't know at first if he would make it---car accident) I think him being able to vent it all out on someone helped my father-in-law.
The best thing you can do is let it out...anyone who cares enough about you will understand that your heart is in pain and you need to let it out. I don't know about anyone else on here but I'm fine with you venting on here as much as you want whenever you want.

I need a duckling.

No more than one- okay fine, two- just in case.

I have ONE single hatched muscovy mix that I incubated because it was a fertile egg among all the infertiles my frizzle sat on, and I put it in the incubator- had I NOT candled them, I would have never known.
Now I have one little baby duck.

My tsc doesnt have any. I emailed the people in Trenton who have ducks- and she emailed me "i have a some hatching in a couple days". that was it- no further description, price, nada. I replied but no further answer.

Whatever happened to Brianna? Havent seen a post from her in quite some time.

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I called Destiny Farms and they have ducklings but they dont except money on Sundays which is when I can go. I have to work soon today.

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I'm gonna have to be. I don't have any other choice.

Just feels like I'm getting hit with everything at once: death of husband, death of semi-valuable hen, death of chicks, funeral home lost DH's wedding ring, I got called for federal jury duty, I went to register for graduate classes at EMU online and I have to re-enroll and that won't go through until next week, end of marking period, proficiency testing, parent teacher conferences, trying to get the new coop built, trying to work on the horse trailer, had the starter go out in the big truck and the water pump will need to be replaced before much longer, stepdaughter called and left a message saying she wants all the stuff her dad promised her but didn't say exactly what it WAS, SIL [who lives in Florida and maybe only calls 4x a year] calling and sobbing that she can't go on with her life since her brother died and she doesn't know how she'll live without him, etc ... which got me to the breaking point "YOU don't know how you'll get along without him?! YOUR day to day life hasn't changed and YOU aren't the one sleeping alone! YOU didn't find him dead and YOU didn't help financially or emotionally with funeral and probate costs and YOU didn't come up for the funeral. YOU are retired and didn't have to deal with a sub or lesson plans or catching up on grading and grades and dealing with the looks of a whole community who know he died and the constant question 'How are you doing?' but accompanied by such a look of sadness and sympathy that you can't help but cry." I did apologize to her and said it was the grief talking, but it just irritated me that she can't get on with her life when I HAVE TO at least for my daughter and animals' sake (although at the rate everything around me is dying, all my animals should be dead by summer.)

Thanks, I feel a little better.

Speaking as a retired teacher....is this the best time for you to do graduate classes? I'm sure considering your circumstances you can get your money back if necessary (sounds like you have to reenroll anyway so not a problem). Death is like the #1 stressor in anyones life...you have to do your job related activities but I think if you really look at your list and prioritize...you will be able to figure what you MUST do and what can be put aside. I'm guessing you can get out of jury duty also...probably could get a doctors note if necessary. Number #1 is taking care of you and your daughter. Praying for you.

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That is so true and this seems to be a great place to vent

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I'm gonna have to be. I don't have any other choice.

Just feels like I'm getting hit with everything at once: death of husband, death of semi-valuable hen, death of chicks, funeral home lost DH's wedding ring, I got called for federal jury duty, I went to register for graduate classes at EMU online and I have to re-enroll and that won't go through until next week, end of marking period, proficiency testing, parent teacher conferences, trying to get the new coop built, trying to work on the horse trailer, had the starter go out in the big truck and the water pump will need to be replaced before much longer, stepdaughter called and left a message saying she wants all the stuff her dad promised her but didn't say exactly what it WAS, SIL [who lives in Florida and maybe only calls 4x a year] calling and sobbing that she can't go on with her life since her brother died and she doesn't know how she'll live without him, etc ... which got me to the breaking point "YOU don't know how you'll get along without him?! YOUR day to day life hasn't changed and YOU aren't the one sleeping alone! YOU didn't find him dead and YOU didn't help financially or emotionally with funeral and probate costs and YOU didn't come up for the funeral. YOU are retired and didn't have to deal with a sub or lesson plans or catching up on grading and grades and dealing with the looks of a whole community who know he died and the constant question 'How are you doing?' but accompanied by such a look of sadness and sympathy that you can't help but cry." I did apologize to her and said it was the grief talking, but it just irritated me that she can't get on with her life when I HAVE TO at least for my daughter and animals' sake (although at the rate everything around me is dying, all my animals should be dead by summer.)

Thanks, I feel a little better.

Speaking as a retired teacher....is this the best time for you to do graduate classes? I'm sure considering your circumstances you can get your money back if necessary (sounds like you have to reenroll anyway so not a problem). Death is like the #1 stressor in anyones life...you have to do your job related activities but I think if you really look at your list and prioritize...you will be able to figure what you MUST do and what can be put aside. I'm guessing you can get out of jury duty also...probably could get a doctors note if necessary. Number #1 is taking care of you and your daughter. Praying for you.

I have to. In order to keep my certification up. I'm already behind on my classes and credits because the year after I was laid off, I went into severe depression and then worked as a media center aide--not knowing which direction my life would go, I didn't take any classes that year. I need to get 11.5 credits by June 2013. The sooner I can get some out of the way, the better.

MCW, I for one am glad that you have this thread to come to. A place where you feel comfortable with sharing your feelings, a place where you can unwind from the stress of all you are going through. The folks here are some of the nicest people I've met anywhere. I'm sure they are all glad to lend an ear when you need one but since we are reading this maybe it should read lend an eye.

I know that in time it will become easier for you inspite of how difficult it now seems and hopefully by Chickenstock you will be able to come and share the day with us and do nothing but visit with friends, eat great food, unwind, and talk about nothing but chickens.

Well, I heard back from the person who lives so close- in Trenton. I will be picking up two black east indie ducklings tomorrow to befriend my little duckling.

Beautiful sunny day out- it managed to trick me though, I thought it was warmer out than it is.

Off to work now-
i hope you all have a wonderful day.

MCW, you emothions are so very raw and at the surface right now. You are pushing yourself to get back to normal and to be strong. You are allowed to fall apart and grieve. You have to give yourself time to do that. It's only been a few weeks. No one expects you to get over your loss so quickly. Focus on what you must do, and don't be afraid to ask for help. Let the small stuff slide for awhile. I'll keep you in my prayers.

MCW -- Nothing more to add to what everyone else has said, but more for you.

HBH -- DH just mentioned a truck to me that a friend/local is selling. I think it's newer but not super new. I only half listened to him when he was talking about it since we're not in the market no matter what he thinks. I'll get the info for you. It's a chevy, I do know that.