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I'm gonna have to be. I don't have any other choice.
Just feels like I'm getting hit with everything at once: death of husband, death of semi-valuable hen, death of chicks, funeral home lost DH's wedding ring, I got called for federal jury duty, I went to register for graduate classes at EMU online and I have to re-enroll and that won't go through until next week, end of marking period, proficiency testing, parent teacher conferences, trying to get the new coop built, trying to work on the horse trailer, had the starter go out in the big truck and the water pump will need to be replaced before much longer, stepdaughter called and left a message saying she wants all the stuff her dad promised her but didn't say exactly what it WAS, SIL [who lives in Florida and maybe only calls 4x a year] calling and sobbing that she can't go on with her life since her brother died and she doesn't know how she'll live without him, etc ... which got me to the breaking point "YOU don't know how you'll get along without him?! YOUR day to day life hasn't changed and YOU aren't the one sleeping alone! YOU didn't find him dead and YOU didn't help financially or emotionally with funeral and probate costs and YOU didn't come up for the funeral. YOU are retired and didn't have to deal with a sub or lesson plans or catching up on grading and grades and dealing with the looks of a whole community who know he died and the constant question 'How are you doing?' but accompanied by such a look of sadness and sympathy that you can't help but cry." I did apologize to her and said it was the grief talking, but it just irritated me that she can't get on with her life when I HAVE TO at least for my daughter and animals' sake (although at the rate everything around me is dying, all my animals should be dead by summer.)
Thanks, I feel a little better.
