MCW, I have not been on in a long time I am so sorry for the pain that you and yours are going through. Nobody can know how others feel or deal with the death of a loved one. I know the year I lost my 18 year old niece and my mother all in 4 months just about did me in and the worst thing anyone could say to me was, I know how you feel. I handled that year one minute at a time in fact I handled the next 3 years one minute at a time. That was 13 years ago and it still hits me. I lost my dad 24 years ago and this year has been the hardest one yet without him. So you take your time, put you and yours first, and hey do what you have to and survive this because that is all any of us can do. The sad truth about death is that it never gets any easier to handle it just gets different with time. Hugs and Prayers jean in MI