➡I accidentally bought Balut eggs: 2 live ducks! Now a Chat Thread!

[Kiki]

Oh okay good, thanks. Was worried I did

Stop worrying.

 

[Kiki]

That makes sense! And supposed I am in a way too but I havent done anything with my life yet lmao

Get busy. Time flies.

 

[ShrekDawg]

Stop worrying.

Thanks kiki. Working on it. Bad habit I guess.

Get busy. Time flies.

Working on that too lol just feeling a bit weird lately. Idk. Felt a bit better last night and today but still.

I’m turning 25 in March and feeling old af lol

I want to get a real job and/or move out though but I need to save up. Right now I only have the dog walking thing. Might start walking more.

I guess I’ve done some stuff, graduated in May, but it took me freaking years to do it. Idk.

 

[ShrekDawg]

This is part of a longer conversation and you can read the rest if you want but I just don’t feel like retyping all this and this was a good story lol basically just kind of feeling like a bit of a loser lately i guess, idk. But i guess in some ways im better than i was, been clean almost 4 1/2 years

@Texas Kiki

Thank you! I’ll have to check out Cincinnati! Hadn’t thought of there. Might check Columbus or Cleveland too.

Oh and sorry for any confusion but I actually already went to school and graduated. I’m going to be 25 in March. I know the job thing could lead most to believe I was still in high school or something but it’s a bit of a complicated history. It’s a bit of a long story but I graduated high school in 2012 then I went to a college in PA that August (I went early because I was in this program thing for people who needed accomodations so I had to meet the other people in it) and I only stayed for a year and one semester. Not even, I dropped out like 2 weeks or less before finals the second year, in December. I was failing all my classes and I was originally planning on staying and finishing like two or at least one, had already dropped one class, and one of the professor’s was really nice and helping me get caught up but then they said there wasn't enough time to get caught up and hand in everything I was missing with only two weeks left so then we just dropped the other ones too. But I was like really depressed at the time, and was the first year too, and also that year they had changed from a trimester system where I only took like 3 classes at once to a semester system so I was taking like 4 or 5 at once, and like 3 of which were education, which all had like a million projects and busy work stuff all at once, so it was a lot. Not that any of that was an excuse, it was totally my fault, but I got all A’s the first semester. To the point where one professor asked my advisors/the program people if I cheated on a test cause I got the highest grade in the class but yet didn’t always do the hw. No I did not cheat, I was just pretty smart and paid attention in class. But anyway, I think it all just kind of combined that second year and became too much for me and I did less and less work until eventually I just stopped because that’s another bad habit, once I become too far behind then I just freeze, get anxious about being so far behind and think it’s too late to hand in old assignments so don’t and then am so behind trying to catch up that I fall even more behind and am never able to. So anyway, long story short, dropped out, labeled it as academic on the thing, which it was, but I was also extremely depressed and really probably should have talked to the school’s counselor and tried to get my shit together instead of failing and dropping out, but it happened so oh well I guess. Anyway, I then took almost a year off and went to a local community college the next fall (2014). But I think I only took like two classes and then one in the spring after and then after that I just took like almost a year and a half off and I think I started again in 2016, can’t remember if it was spring or fall, I think it was fall but idk. But that’s when I started taking it slightly more seriously and took no more time off even though I was still mostly only taking two classes, the few I started taking like 3 and the last one took 4, and finally graduated in May this past year, 2018, (so weird that it is the new year already). I probably would have graduated sooner if I had taken more classes but I didn’t want to take too many and be overwhelmed again and I am just glad I finally graduated. But it is still only an associate’s (2 year) degree. So I took like 6+ years in and out of school to only have a 2 year degree, that’s a little bit ridiculous and pathetic, but I do have a degree. I’ve been debating whether to go back and get a 4 year but I’m just so glad to be done with school. And then once I graduated, I started walking and training the dogs, though they only had one at the time and only got the second in September. I do that a lot but would like a “real” job too or to possibly at least get more dog walking clients, you make a lot of money doing that and it’s good exercise ha but idk. And I realize that I probably should have gotten a job in all that in between time during school but I also didn’t even get my license until April 2016, idk why I was so late getting it, I just was, so I really couldn’t. But now that I am finally done with school and somewhat settled, I am ready to get my shit together and move out, get a real job, etc. But I have also been in a bit of a funk ever since I graduated and just kind of sitting around not doing much, even around here, so I need to get out of that funk too. Tbh I think I never really got over the depression, it just took a different form, so I thought I was better, but I’m still in kind of a funk. I need to get out of it. But sorry for the entire life story. Point being, I do actually already have an education and I think moving would be good and might get me out of this funk I’ve been in the last few years. But I might also go back to school. Idk. I still am totally unsure but I am turning 25 in March so I am starting to feel the pressure. Like that I am getting really effing old and need to get my life together. Starting to panic and worry I am getting too old to find a boyfriend and have kids. Never even had a boyfriend or kissed anyone or anything either.



Aw that stinks



That’s why I could never ever live in a place with an HOA. Too many rules. But it’s hard now because even places with some acreage have HOAs! It’s like they’ve got farming HOAs or soemthing aha

 

[NanaKat]

So far we just have freezing rain. Snow and sleet coming. The ground is crunchy and icicles everywhere.
Had to feed the cow herds from the Ranger instead of the feed truck because the ground was not frozen...muddy and glazed over.
The ducks are loving the mud, but the chickens are staying inside the hen house. The dogs are going outside and back inside in 5 minutes for potty breaks.

 

[Kiki]

This is part of a longer conversation and you can read the rest if you want but I just don’t feel like retyping all this and this was a good story lol basically just kind of feeling like a bit of a loser lately i guess, idk. But i guess in some ways im better than i was, been clean almost 4 1/2 years

@Texas Kiki

Been clean?
What?
You did drugs?

 

[CrazyCrttr75]

This is part of a longer conversation and you can read the rest if you want but I just don’t feel like retyping all this and this was a good story lol basically just kind of feeling like a bit of a loser lately i guess, idk. But i guess in some ways im better than i was, been clean almost 4 1/2 years

@Texas Kiki

I wish I had some words of wisdom for ya. Everyone marches to the beat of their own drum, so to speak. I have 2 kids, a daughter that is 25 and a son that just turned 21. My daughter couldn't wait to grow up. She wanted her driver's license as soon as she could. She was my social butterfly. Always had friends. Always wanting to go here or there with this person or that. She opted to graduate highschool early instead of going to prom and walking with her classmates at graduation. She moved out and went to college. At that point is when life hit her square in her face and she faltered, tremendously. She was failing her classes. Got into some stuff and behaviors that she shouldn't have. She failed out. Tried again. Failed out again. Accrued a bunch of school debt that she ended up defaulting on. It wasn't a good time in her life and she made a bunch of not so great life choices and one of them that could've cost her her life (thankfully she survived the accidental O.D.). She struggled with depression, anxiety, panic attacks and lack of self esteem at times in some form. It is NO WHERE NEAR where it once was. She has come so far and is doing so much better now. Not perfect, but definitely so much better. One step at a time. Sometimes in baby steps, sometimes in leaps and bounds. Better life choices, one decision at a time. It all adds up. She is in a good, stable relationship. She has a good job. She just moved into a house (that she is renting but she can say it is hers) with her boyfriend and a friend of theirs. With the 3 of their income they are able to afford it where they don't have to struggle as bad. So they can continue to get in better financial life situations and continue to grow as adults. Now she is doing ok and healthy and most importantly HAPPY. Now my son, a totally different story. He is a bit more socially awkward, reserved. Super smart. A little Aspergers. Has a couple close friends that he tries to keep in touch with since graduating highschool and might get together with a few times a year. He's never had a girlfriend. He's never been on a date. Definitely not your typical boy. He STILL doesn't have his driver's license (which we are going to try and remedy whether he is ready or not here soon). He did have a job a while back and while he worked he just banked money. He worked there for a little over a yr and ended up being let go. He's been going to college full time and will be graduating with 2 degrees (an A.S. and A.A.S) and with $0 school debt. He started with initial intentions of going for a specific path. Now here we are and he has no regrets but he isn't sure it's what he really wants to do. He is just kind of unsure and lost. He's going to have to discover life a little more to truly find himself. Whatever he does, I just want him to find something that he loves, meets his economic needs and to be happy. I fully believe he will be ok but it's going to take him a bit longer. Just a different drum beat. I have a friend who lived with her parents until she was 30. She worked full time. Paid her own bills and would help with the groceries and whatever else her parents needed. Graduated highschool but never went to college. While she worked she just saved money. When she finally moved out, she had enough money for a down payment on her own home, where she lives very happily. Just a different drum beat. My hubby is a highschool dropout that just has his GED. Never went to college except for a specific class to get a certificate for a job at the time or something like that. In the early yrs he job hopped until he finally decided on a field that he was happy with (that he is still in today. Job field, not specific job). It was a struggle but we survived. He currently has a VERY good job and we live very comfortably. Just a different drum beat. That was all to say that everything they went through either helped them or is helping them to make the right choices, at the right times, to get to where they are today. Just keep moving forward to whatever goals you may have. No matter how far away they may seem, you will get there.

 

[CrazyCrttr75]

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So far we just have freezing rain. Snow and sleet coming. The ground is crunchy and icicles everywhere.
Had to feed the cow herds from the Ranger instead of the feed truck because the ground was not frozen...muddy and glazed over.
The ducks are loving the mud, but the chickens are staying inside the hen house. The dogs are going outside and back inside in 5 minutes for potty breaks.

I HATE freezing rain! It is so destructive. I sure hope it changes over quickly. Be safe!

 

[Kiki]

I'm having trouble telling my pepper triplets apart.

Jalapeno, Habenero and Serrano...they are dumb.

 

[CrazyCrttr75]

Oh what cutie patooties!