Well, I think I was actually up until 1 or 2

BUT. I turned everything off around midnight and haven’t touched it since until a quick break now* so I was reading an actual book all that time. Which is also why I say I don’t know what time I went to sleep because I didn’t want to turn technology on to check. But I spent a while picking one out lol and then today I have been off technology and working all morning/afternoon so far. Haven’t missed it at all but couldn’t stop thinking about this thread. But I finally got my seeds planted. Although I figured out I actually have a lot of direct sow ones which is good and bad. Good because it means I’m not as behind as I thought since most can’t even be planted yet and bad because I am still behind on the ones that aren’t direct sow. But tomatoes usually grow really fast so I am sure it will be fine. I planted eggplant, peppers, and 4 kinds of tomatoes. Still need to plant more but I only have one seed mat. Had another but can’t find it so I ordered a new one which is what I am using. I am worried the eggplant won’t pop up in time but hopefully it will be okay. If not, oh well. Not a huge loss. I will just buy some maybe. But I have the seed mat and it’s set high so hopefully they grow.
*Was supposed to be like 5 mins but been probably half hour or slightly more now but I’m just checking all the threads then putting it back away.
Thank you. I am definitely working on it. Got a lot accomplished today so far and still more to do. Just wanted to check here and then back to work.
Yeah, I’m sorry I was so harsh/mean/bitchy last night. I figured you were probably speaking on the motivation part but I wasn’t sure because you said feelings so I guess I kind of assumed you meant something else. Idk. Sorry. I was probably a little defensive but I know you didn’t mean it this way but the way it was worded/the way you had said you can’t base feelings off it and then listed all the stuff you did I kind of thought it was like saying it wasn’t an excuse or being dismissive of it something which was kind of why I reacted like I did. But I know that you would never intentionally do that or say anything like that or anything mean or whatever so I shouldn’t have been so reactive but it’s just there are people who do and people who dismiss that sort of stuff/don’t believe in it or say people are just weak mentally or lazy or whatever so I think sometimes I get a little overly defensive because of that cause I’ve run into people like that and it can be hard to tell on the internet and especially tone and intentions and stuff. But I should have known you would never in a million years have any malicious intentions or anything so I am sorry for going off like that.

And I’m sorry if you know about it too