I just bought some Dr. Scholls freestep sneakers.
I have no idea what works for my feet because I’ve never ventured outside of toms and converse.
On another note.. I HATE spending money on myself. Why can I drop $50 on the dogs without blinking, but I need a freaking sign from God to spend that much on sneakers?
(the sign from God was frantically stuffing my toms with dog toy fluff at 7am this morning, praying hubby wouldn’t walk through and catch me... no comment)
Yes. The wisest and smartest cookie. That’s me.
Hey, nothing wrong with that.
When I have bad days I make lists of every step of my day. It’s a coping mechanism.. if it looks stupid but it works, then it ain’t stupid.
That second part made me laugh
But I’m the same way tbh. I can spend a ton on the pets, make sure they have the best whatever, but then meanwhile I only have like a few pairs of sneakers I wear daily and mostly wear t shirts and shorts daily and eat like crap most days
That said, I do somewhat have a problem with buying like band merch or books or whatever.
I’ve been better lately but occasionally have a bit of a spending problem but I don’t spend it on anything useful lol clothes or shoes or anything
Meanwhile the pets all have sooo much stuff
And thank you. That does make me feel better tbh.
It’s lame but sometimes I have to do that or I won’t remember.
You should get over your fear and make the cottage cheese popsicles
Sounds nasty LOL
That texture wouldn't be pleasant frozen. Like licking a popcorn ceiling.
What's in the kitchen that is both easy and nutritious? Have you tried the meal replacement shakes? I think getting your nutrition on a better path might help. I'd feel like crap if I ate like that, too.
X2! On all of it lol cottage cheese popsicles sounds disgusting lol
And yup! Whenever I eat like shit, processed foods, sugar, etc. it’s a given that I will both feel like shit physically and mentally and usually get depressed. It’s a real thing. They say food can have a huge impact on your mental health. Grain/bread too.
I rather shovel horse poop all day.
AH HA! So
that’s why you wanted me to shovel so much earlier... you enjoy it!
I definitely don’t but I will try it if I can manage to without barfing everywhere
Currently trying to eat lunch.
You know, I think this is karma for my mom and I making fun of my dad about his cold and wondering why he was laying around so much, saying it’s just a cold, quit being a baby, get up and do something, etc. and thinking it was just “man flu”......
yeah.... this is a
horrible cold. I feel like dog shit.
Definitely karma.
I don't like shakes like that
Try! Or a vitamin mix drink at least.
You don't have to like them just chug it hold your nose and chug it.
x2
Cottage cheese looks like something you'd drain from an abscess.
Okay ewwwwww.
God just told me to tell you to buy some good sneakers, screw the price tag. I might be paraphrasing.
So does red bull count as a meal replacement?
No lol
Red bull makes you feel like you are dying.
It's the devil throw it away.
true
But you told me to drink it the other day
So you would do something but it didn’t work lol
No. I know you're smart enough to understand a nutrition label.
X2!
@CarpCharacin You seem to have a pretty good understanding of what doesn't work for you and a genuine enjoyment of banter. I'm curious to know if you have any ideas about what you can do to start your healing process?
good idea.
Me too lol
I changed my mind, I was wrong.
Me too ha
I'm meeting with the school counselor, and I have an appointment with the sleep specialist. I'm already keeping a log of what times I wake up and go to sleep at.
Good idea but I do think you should find another therapist.
That's a start. How about a food diary? Simple accountability helps some people.
Good idea.
I'm not sure about a food diary
You are already keeping a sleep diary. Should be simple to just add food to it.
Another hot button.
I like Mrs. Tessa's idea for motivation listing thing you know youll do and checking them off before you move on... key for me at my worst was just going outside. Once i got outside i felt better and i might just sit outside n watch birds but eventually i was able to leave my house everyday again.
I love this idea too!
X2! On everything. I’ve definitely had days where I don’t even go outside all day.
But I feel like shit. So going outside definitely helps. I always feel better once I do haha
Can you, will you consider trying something while you wait for the sleep appointment. That's a really long time away.
X2
I think he needs to find a new therapist.
Or any diary, really.
I went through a really, really hard time once and I wrote a freaking book's worth of feels out. And it was cathartic for me but even more so when I read it later armed with hindsight. It helped me not repeat the mistakes that had landed me in that dark place.
Very true. I used to write stuff down/journal a lot and it did really help.
I’ve never reread mine though, I think it would just make me depressed all over reliving it and especially I was pretty negative/nasty/mean in it. Thinking of burning it lol
I've tried the melatonin and stuff. I've had this sleep problem for as long as I can remember, but it's been making me feel especially bad recently.
Those are fast and easy but no sure they’re the healthiest but eating anything is better than nothing at this point.
Have you unplugged the internet for a week yet?
Good idea.
No, and I doubt I will, that would make me feel worse.
I don’t think it will. Internet/phone/social media addiction is a real thing and can make you feel worse.
The whole too much screen time is a real thing.
Could you try it for just 2 days?
X2!! It’s very real.
I'm not sure if I could, it would probably make me more depressed.
I really believe it would help you rather than hurt you. Being on the screen too much does not help depression and possibly even causes it. I would know ha
You should try going for a walk, reading a book, hanging out with your animals, drawing/painting, writing, anything other than being on the phone or computer. I really believe it would help you. And maybe it doesn’t have to be for a whole week or two whole days or anything like Kiki said. Maybe it starts with a couple hours. Or even maybe just an hour at first. If you can’t get off it for a whole hour, start with 5 minutes. Get up, get a glass of water, walk around a bit, come back. Baby steps. But I really believe it will help you.
Our farmers market was hopping today! I got peaches, potatoes, tomatoes, yellow squash, zucchini, cheese, milk, & sausage.
Btw... does anyone else feel guilty at the small farmers markets when you pass some vendor booths without buying anything or is this just a weird condition I have?
That is awesome!!
Would you listen to a doctor if they told you you needed to?
Hopefully.
Maybe, but it would make me a lot more isolated, and a lot more depressed.
I really do not think it will. In fact, they’ve done studies that show that excessive phone/internet use can actually make you feel
more isolated, lonely, depressed, etc. that’s because you have so many friends online, followers on social media, lots of likes, whatever but none of them are there in real life and usually when you’re online, you’re inside or otherwise isolated from real people/real life. So being online too much actually makes you feel more isolated. Do you have any IRL friends you could hang out with even just for a little bit? Or siblings? Go hang with your animals even. Just get off the phone temporarily. I promise you will feel better. I know it’s hard, I’m usually on my phone all day every day, rarely put it down, always on here, Twitter, or FB, and it’s hard to put it down and pull yourself away but I’ve been trying lately and you can too. Technology addiction is a very real thing just like any other addiction and you have to break the cycle. I promise you will feel better if you do. No one’s saying you have to just throw it away and all of a sudden magically be super productive but it starts with baby steps. Force yourself to get up out of bed, force yourself to eat, force yourself to shower, force yourself to drink something, etc. and it will be hard. Not gonna lie. But then I promise it will start to snowball and you will feel better. Just gotta keep one foot in front of the other and keep pushing on, pushing through. You’ll make it.
I'll probably end up panhandling for a living.
I know you can do a lot more than that.
Never. One look at the price tags assuages any doubtful feelings I may have about not purchasing from them. They cater to the city folk that travel in, and their prices reflect that! I prefer to go direct to the sources. It's much cheaper.
true lol although ours often are the source, the farmers or small people go there hah
X2. I hope they know how he is feeling. You really should tell them, Carp.
It's what I've told her I feel like, and I also told the therapist that I was seeing before he quit. For me to have a job, it would probably need to have flexible hours, which the only jobs that I'll probably ever be qualified for, such as fast food, don't have.
What about something IT related? You are good at computers, right? I think you could easily do something like that and you may even be able to find something where you can work from home which might work for you.
You are super smart so I know that you
will get past this and you
will find a good job and have a good life
Since i know i would just waste most of that good for you stuff i dont feel too bad but if im looking too close at something and we talk about it then im doomed.
Also much worse feeling at livestock swaps. I hate to see critters in bad shape and often know some things id like to try to fix it. Closing my flock after certification helped cuz now i have a good Reason to say no but at one time the motley crew was my backyard. I have an album of the 2016 coturnix rescue on here. They laid inside of 1 wk for me but he had had them 7 months without collecting a single egg their conditions were just so bad. I dont think they had ever seen dust before they were so Greasy, he told me he had been regularly Hosing them off
.
The last rescue was 4 buttons from my local feed store. I went in for one cot for the loner i had due to the gnat fiasco and these things were All bare backed half of em openly bleeding waaaay too many cramed in a little fishtank. I went home with 7 birds in total
Oh wow! I can see why you rescued them! Would have too tbh haha
We don't have city folk here and our vendors are the sources. They little old folks who've grown and produced things in their gardens, greenhouses, homesteads, etc. Just little people trying to make themselves a little extra money off of something they are good at. Today we literally had 6 vendors there. I'm thinking my farmers market and your farmers market are nothing alike.
Oh wow that is a tiny farmers market! Haha I think I’d feel bad then too lol we have a few different ones here and they’re not too expensive but some of them are and some have like crafts or whatever too. They’re not huge though, more than 6 but not a ton. Idk. I like them. But now my garden’s so huge I don’t really need to go to them.
