Can anyone else "sense" death is coming?
For a few weeks now I just cant get it off my mind. Its to the point where I am in a panic at times. Its what I think about when I go to sleep, tossing and turning till I am just too tired.
Honestly I think it is myself or someone close to me that is going to go. Not sure if its going to be cancer or a car wreck... but I think its going to be quick.
If it is myself I am scared for my children.. and honestly for myself. Usually I havent feared death until now.. The thought of not living my life scares me. The thought of rotting in the ground, scares me.
Its not the first time Ive known death was going to come knocking.
I just dont know if I can handle another death. I dont take them emotionally but more physiologically.
When I got the news of my mothers death I was cooking my SO bacon and eggs for breakfast. That was in 08 and I think Ive cooked him breakfast a total of 5 times since then.
..and I use to cook it for him every morning. My housework has suffered tremendously. I kind of feel like "what do I have to prove anymore?".
My fear is ...what am I going to loose next?
A few times I sat in the shower and cried over this feeling I have. Ive tried looking it up, Ive tried forgetting it, Ive tried letting fate have its way.. Nothing works.
Im starting to get more and more into panic mode.
...What if its my SO I loose? What if its my father, sister, aunt, cousin...?
What am I suppose to do with these feelings?!?!
Has anyone else had them? Known anyone else to have them before they died?
Anyone have any answers?!?!
For a few weeks now I just cant get it off my mind. Its to the point where I am in a panic at times. Its what I think about when I go to sleep, tossing and turning till I am just too tired.
Honestly I think it is myself or someone close to me that is going to go. Not sure if its going to be cancer or a car wreck... but I think its going to be quick.
If it is myself I am scared for my children.. and honestly for myself. Usually I havent feared death until now.. The thought of not living my life scares me. The thought of rotting in the ground, scares me.
Its not the first time Ive known death was going to come knocking.
I just dont know if I can handle another death. I dont take them emotionally but more physiologically.
When I got the news of my mothers death I was cooking my SO bacon and eggs for breakfast. That was in 08 and I think Ive cooked him breakfast a total of 5 times since then.
..and I use to cook it for him every morning. My housework has suffered tremendously. I kind of feel like "what do I have to prove anymore?".
My fear is ...what am I going to loose next?
A few times I sat in the shower and cried over this feeling I have. Ive tried looking it up, Ive tried forgetting it, Ive tried letting fate have its way.. Nothing works.
Im starting to get more and more into panic mode.
...What if its my SO I loose? What if its my father, sister, aunt, cousin...?
What am I suppose to do with these feelings?!?!
Has anyone else had them? Known anyone else to have them before they died?
Anyone have any answers?!?!
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