Mrs. Green Thumbs :
I'm a bit late to the discussion sorry if I'm off topic
I believe there is a creator, I on the other hand have my doubt's about the way my religion (Christianity) has tried to force their idea of who my creator is. I'm not anti jesus, I'm a person that looks around herself and see the miracle in every breath we take every breeze blown by and realizes that in all the galaxy, on all the planet's it's too much of a coincidence for life to have not only existed but flourish to be an accident. Not only that but I know in my spirit that I have a creator that I will return to when my time here is over. I do not believe in church, I do not trust in the church. There is too much in the bible that has been twisted into a tool to control society. Fear mongering seems to be the biggest money maker as well for the church. And any group that suggests that a person should go against or feel guilty and ashamed of their natural inclination's is not an organization I would be interested in.
I believe in worship, I do it in my garden when I nurture my plants, I do it in my home when I love my family, I do it in public, when I am generous to those less fortunate than I, I do it when I'm alone by learning to love the creature my creator made me into. Not trying to be preachy but my ex husband was a fear mongering bible thumping YOU BETTER BELIEVE OR YOUR GOING TO HELL type of person. I (before his brainwashing came into play) was a child raised in a godless home needing something to cling to. He had my head so twisted up that now... 4 years later I am STILL confused about God and feel guilty about losing faith in him. More so it's fear that the God my ex-husband worshiped does exist, because even if he did... I doubt Id want to follow him.
That just goes to show for all those "force it down your gullet" kind of Christians... you won't help, your only going to make things more confusing. For me I have a long hard road still to go before I can decide if I'm afraid that I am disappointing this all powerful God or if I'm terrified that my fear is not my own but that of my ex-husbands and I can't seem to shake it.
Someday I'll find my answers but for now.... I don't know what I am.
I hear 'ya. I too find my "church/worship" in the everyday living. I truly enjoy the beauty of simple things. I frequently tell people that SCUBA diving is my church. No one yacking in your ear, down under the water enjoying all the creatures...At this period in time I choose not to decide for myself if there is a God or more than one God, if Jesus was here, if I'm going to hell or any other place deemed appropriate for those who try to live a life wanting to help others. I attempt to be mindful that we are here for just a moment in time and though it sounds corny I stop and smell the flowers and have witnessed sunsets and sunrises that take my breath away. I like to live and let live!