Ok, I am jumping on the bandwagon.
I want to lose weight... no I *NEED* to lose weight for my mental well-being and self esteem. I lack the self-control and accountablity-to-self to do this on my own. I will be good and do what I have to for a week and then it's back to being a lump. Everyone on here is so encouraging, and I know I for one need that!
Ok to start: I am 5'4" and I am 148 pounds. I am small boned, and I feel horrible about myself because for my whole life I was under 120 pounds. I seem to hold my weight around the chin, abdomen, and upper arms; from the elbows down I look normal and petite.
I know it most people would laugh at me saying 148 isn't much and blah blah blah. Well I am not supposed to be this much. Everyone (and I mean everyone) on my father's side is a size 4 maybe a 2. My genetics are tiny. I grew up being tiny. My frame is for a tiny person. Heck I was only 100 pounds when I graduated highschool and leveled at 116 pounds until I got pregnant at 24. After that I skyrocketed to 170 pounds. I had gestational diabetes that weren't diagnosed until I was 7 months (I had to switch doctors and she actually tested me). Basically the placenta and hormones were interfering and making my insulin not work right, so everything I ate (which wasn't super healthy.... I never had to eat right before) went straight to fat. After my daughter I was only able to get down to 140; and then I got pregnant again. I had gestational diabetes again. I tried being better this time around because I anticipated it, but I still hit 175 pounds. This time I have only been able to get back to 148 pounds.
The MOST I should weigh and not be over-weight is 130. I know alot of my problem is I am not burning the calories that I take in, but I also suspect I have developed diabetes (I have not been tested but I have noticed alot things that lead me to think I am, plus I already am at a 90% risk of developing diabetes because I had gestational diabetes twice).
My goal weight is 125 pounds. I know I will never be a size 2 again, my hips have spread too much, but a size 5 or 6 would be nice. I know I need to increase my exercise but I am not sure how to. I have social anxiety so a gym is out (I have panic attacks). I try walking but I get winded after 15 minutes. I know walking and cardio is best as well as strength training.
Where to start?! (and it doesn't help it is FREEZING out 6 months out of the year...makes it hard to leave the house outside of doing a few quick barn chores)
