Hi everyone, I've taken a break from BYC to sort out my life. Here I am typing to strangers, yet somehow I know some of you will relate. I'm newly single by choice. I've ended a 9 year relationship. I had a terrible spring... lost my father in May- he was my best friend and a great dad. I was DEVASTATED. It's getting easier to bear though. I lost my job... I'm relocating to a smaller, uglier house- but more manageable as far as heating and electrical bills (current house is 3,000 square feet- new house= wayyy smaller) I have a temp job that will get me through until April so I can relax for a moment... I'm still questioning the meaning of life. What is the purpose of all of this? The good in all of this is I'll have my self esteem back, kids will be happier, and the new house, ugly as it might be, has a HUGE yard, nice landlords, and best of all, I can have my garden & they've OK'ed 25 Cornish Cross chicks. Actually, the house is not ugly, it just has "untapped potential" and it's 100 years old, so I give it a little credit for still standing. I still have my two Silkie girls, and am getting eggs out of Pei Pei regularily - about 4 a week. Ginger began to lay and then stopped when the weather got colder. They're exempt from the butcher. I want to have a full veggie garden and a full freezer by fall, so I'm looking foreward to becoming an urban farmer. I'm gonna be OK! Anyone out there with advice on life, or a similar story, go ahead and share.