I understand your concerns. I have a tubby hubby, too. If he is not sexy to you, you might want ot address that directly.
HOWEVER, your comments about your "moderate" family really gave me cause to pause. I wonder if you value "self discipline" more than your DH does. Do you attach a value to self discipline & self control? Is he less of a man because he indulges himself? People have some pretty varied and interesting notions of the concept strength. You know: real men don't cry, real men are tough, etc. Another example: anorexics feel very smug about not eating and disgusted by the weakness in people who pig out. (I know that I felt that way 25 years ago, when I was in the throes of my food issues). I am in no way trying to say that your views are that extreme or that you have a problem. You might just not see things his way.
HOWEVER, your comments about your "moderate" family really gave me cause to pause. I wonder if you value "self discipline" more than your DH does. Do you attach a value to self discipline & self control? Is he less of a man because he indulges himself? People have some pretty varied and interesting notions of the concept strength. You know: real men don't cry, real men are tough, etc. Another example: anorexics feel very smug about not eating and disgusted by the weakness in people who pig out. (I know that I felt that way 25 years ago, when I was in the throes of my food issues). I am in no way trying to say that your views are that extreme or that you have a problem. You might just not see things his way.