I can't do the butchering. I'm very sensitive, and I had to put down a hen a month ago and still am having nightmares. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I have a good friend that does it humanely in exchange for chicks/pullets to add to her laying flock.I have had fresh chicken before, I grew up on my gmas farm, it has been ages though. I plan on raising them in a tractor so they are seperated from my birds and are not as easy to associate with.. I know it will still happen because you raised them and that is apart of you but I have to try because Ia m kind of on my own with this lol. I will slaughter myself which will be hard, but I want to do the whole process it is a religious thing so I gotta put my big girl panties on and do the job lol.
I will be selling poults next spring too and force a couple into the meat penyea it has to happen
Your husband won't help you?