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I am struggling with what I have diagnosed as mareks in a new group of birds I acquired. One bird who I am sure has it is struggling and although I have tried everything including force feeding I just cant anymore. Others have a sneezing problem and the first one to start sneezing is dropping a wing now. All intervention I have given does not seem to be helping. I spent a sleepless night going over all culling posts and videos I have done it once before and try to talk about it frankly so that I may somehow force myself to be ok with it all but am STRUGGLING.
I just always see their little faces and get really sad. there are a few times I have thought I would cull the really sick bird but then did not after I looked into its eyes. Why is this so hard???? This is nature right? I want to be self sufficient right, this is part of that and I need to get over it, but how!!! Any motivational comments would be helpful as I know I am going to procrastinate for a few hours while I muster up the courage.
I am afraid for my flock that share the same air space but completely separate coops, and although I will never make that mistake again what is done is done. I am willing to accept my responsibility for this whole mess but just feel so bad for the birds.
I dont drink but am thinking a glass of wine might calm my nerves (the problem being that more than a glass will make me blitzed so I have to be really careful to just have a few sips)
I had planned to do my processing with my SO but broke up with him on V-day so that is not going to happen.
I guess my question is for the birds that still seem healthy (not sneezing or anything) can I process them to eat? The others I will just cull and dispose of, but I would like to try to keep this from being both an emotional loss and a financial one.
I know this may sound harsh and there are many people who would keep trying to save them but I just cant handle it all with all of my other responsibilities and with the risk of it spreading to all the others and loosing the whole flock.
I am going to have my sister take my ds and then I will do it. I just need to summon the strength to do it and that's where I am having a hard time.
I would also like to thank all the BYC members who posted processing info because that has helped a lot.
Sorry for the long babble....
I am struggling with what I have diagnosed as mareks in a new group of birds I acquired. One bird who I am sure has it is struggling and although I have tried everything including force feeding I just cant anymore. Others have a sneezing problem and the first one to start sneezing is dropping a wing now. All intervention I have given does not seem to be helping. I spent a sleepless night going over all culling posts and videos I have done it once before and try to talk about it frankly so that I may somehow force myself to be ok with it all but am STRUGGLING.
I just always see their little faces and get really sad. there are a few times I have thought I would cull the really sick bird but then did not after I looked into its eyes. Why is this so hard???? This is nature right? I want to be self sufficient right, this is part of that and I need to get over it, but how!!! Any motivational comments would be helpful as I know I am going to procrastinate for a few hours while I muster up the courage.
I am afraid for my flock that share the same air space but completely separate coops, and although I will never make that mistake again what is done is done. I am willing to accept my responsibility for this whole mess but just feel so bad for the birds.
I dont drink but am thinking a glass of wine might calm my nerves (the problem being that more than a glass will make me blitzed so I have to be really careful to just have a few sips)
I had planned to do my processing with my SO but broke up with him on V-day so that is not going to happen.
I guess my question is for the birds that still seem healthy (not sneezing or anything) can I process them to eat? The others I will just cull and dispose of, but I would like to try to keep this from being both an emotional loss and a financial one.
I know this may sound harsh and there are many people who would keep trying to save them but I just cant handle it all with all of my other responsibilities and with the risk of it spreading to all the others and loosing the whole flock.
I am going to have my sister take my ds and then I will do it. I just need to summon the strength to do it and that's where I am having a hard time.
I would also like to thank all the BYC members who posted processing info because that has helped a lot.
Sorry for the long babble....
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