so here i am posting on a chicken forum about my problems.............i think that says it all. right? anyone had a diabetic pregnancy.........was it scary? im going off the deep end. in 2009 i had 2 stillbirths......in jan then sept, 2 little boys, 20 and 23 weeks, we know now that i have a geen mutation that makes my blood clot and clot and clot, and now im 15 weeks , yes i got immediately pregnant again, i dont know how, i mean i know how, but , anyways, im a total mess, ive gained 30 pounds since last jan. im just not ever going to be normal again, and most days im a wreck, i dont want to get up or live in reality, but i have to . so im really focusing on some chicken projects , i dont have many friends, we had to leave our church, long story, and im in a big dark pit. so now im telling strangers on a chicken forum about it. im terrified.
im so terrified. its just too much.
UPDATE.
not feeling as much like a lunatic today, feeling moderately normal.......looking all over trying to buy a used 4wd truck, not having much luck but im hopeful! thanks for all the kindness, and the yelling at me,(you know who you are
...) sometimes you need to be yelled at! i am taking care of myself and not eating 10 lbs of chocolate taday...or any day.enjoying 1 doz. white roses instead,
things could be worse.
thanks again.
im so terrified. its just too much.
UPDATE.
not feeling as much like a lunatic today, feeling moderately normal.......looking all over trying to buy a used 4wd truck, not having much luck but im hopeful! thanks for all the kindness, and the yelling at me,(you know who you are



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