Hi Heather, you're so sweet to ask and keep up with me. I just haven't been following this thread and need to go back and read up. Honestly, sometimes I don't get on BYC because all of the sad cases seem so heavy and make me feel burdened. I know there's so much happy too, and I've been so blessed by this community and all that it has to offer in terms of support and friendship. I'm just weak with animal sadness, and I have my own share. My ducks are okay. I think that the queen of my coop, the duck that made my Christmas card, and made all the work worthwhile, Puddles, is probably slowly dying of internal laying. I haven't taken her to the vet, so I'm ashamed to even mention it here, but I just don't know how much the vet can help, and I know it will be upwards of thousands possibly even to determine the problem, and likely not curable. I've lost sleep, felt sad, and have researched hours on this site and others to try to figure out what's going on. Today she refused her absolute favorite food, which in the past she honked loudly for and gobbled up. It was sad. My other pekin, Penny, I think I mentioned already, how her 9 month bout with bumblefoot cleared up and she went lame on the same day her scab disappeared. She can walk a little but it looks painful and bad - I have felt her legs, no swelling, or anything that appears broken, but again, haven't taken her in for an x-ray. She's huge, so no doubt her weight doesn't help. I've been carrying her around to the pond and back for a couple months, but she does seem happy enough, except when my other pekin, Tuppins, has pulled her feathers or gotten her eye

Trying to keep them separate when it seems like Tuppins is most in the mood to go after Penny. One of my other favorites, Mable, still occasionally shakes her head and I'm worried I might have aspergillosis issues going on. I've been vaporizing both my welsh with Oxine OH but after a week my new vaporizer died - 2nd one. So need to order a new one. My babies were supposed to be 3 females and I have 2 that are "quacking" just like males. I have no idea how that will all shake out. I will definitely try to make it work out since I care about them. I've had better luck integrating them with the older girls (aside from Penny, who constantly gets attacked and I try to protect since it's hard for her to get away) lately - they are doing well free-ranging together and being in my tractor together - although the babies will still chase the big ones on occasion. Ugh, hate to be a downer, just so much of my time and brain space and emotion goes into these ducks - I'm starting to think it's too much! I only get one egg a day, so these are just pets! But they're pets, and I love them. I think the main memory my kids will have of me when I'm dead is mom was always out with the ducks.

They are 18 and 20 now, so I've done my due diligence there, but.....