Fuzzy's Farm

[Mom 2em All]

I tried to skim through all the posts real fast.

WISDOM TEETH=

mine came in when I was uhhhhhh, early twenties, maybe. However, they came in STRAIGHT- was wonderful hahaha...the dentist pulled my upper back molars instead of my wisdoms because there was no room for all of them, but he said= easier to pull the molars to make room. Okay fine. Went great for one. The other upper molar- the dentist could not pull. Uhhh, an extra root that wrapped around the jawbone- or through the jaw bone. Something like that. Had to go to the oral surgeon. Got it out. Sucked bad. Oral guy said- "soon we have to stop, admit defeat, and take you to surgery to cut the root out of your jaw bone. Let me try one more time, then you have to go to surgery if it doesnt come. CRACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK good, got it."

I do not possess lower wisdom teeth. They are not there- they are not formed they never will be. Mom doesnt have lowers either. No such luck for my kids. My son had all four pulled. His cheeks swelled so badly he looked like a basketball, couldnt close his mouth because his cheeks were in the way. Was pitiful. Did it two days before Christmas.

 

[Mom 2em All]

Oh I have more info.

Sorry- I seem to be full of it this morning.

My moms kidneys were just one number above needing dialysis. Her kidneys are bad (fyi- medicare doesnt pay for transplants. They want people to die.) Anyhow- what caused her kidneys to be so bad?

Her blood pressure medicine.

Yep, they are not giving her blood pressure medicine now until absolutely stroke level. They monitor it very carefully. Yesterday, when it was 197/ 102 they gave her a pill. Then again when it was 179/ 96 . Other than that, nope. Got to pick and choose what will kill you the most.

FINALLY they have a urinary catheter in her. Rather freaky to see red koolaid though. And she is anemic. AND also- her homeosysteine levels are through the roof. She doesnt eat very much red meat at all- so....muscle wasting has to be the cause. Heart muscle? I dunno.

 

[Gigiintheforest]

Oh, Mom2, I'm so sorry for all this. You are so strong.

 

[Mom 2em All]

Thanks Gigi. Im not strong- I dont have a choice. Just go through what I have to go through. I am in fact, an animal abuser.
I just brought in my rabbit. going to give it to my coworker. See- I dont even know the past three days- they are all a blur. A blur of the hospital. Chickens had enough food to hold them over and water. I filled their pan overfull. Dogs and cats are in someones face in the house so they get fed on demand. But NOBODY here realized that the rabbit may need food. Or that I own a rabbit. And I was out of food. So, he has only had whatever he could scrounge that would have been spilled in his huge pen.
That is wrong. No matter how you cut it. No excuse. I dont tolerate animal abuse. I just found some dying salad mix in my fridge and put it with him in the bathroom. I will take him with me and give him to my coworker. Her mother owns rabbit paradise and he will live happily ever after. She does not even know I am bringing him. I however, shall admit my sin and take full responsibility for it. I didnt tell anyone to check the rabbit or go buy some sort of food that resembles rabbit food. I simply have existed through the past blur of days.

 

[fuzzybutt love]

no words, mom. we are all here, though.
Idk why you are being tested so, but please know that we are all here and care very much, worry very much too. I wish i had a car and not this big old truck, i wish i could just come over and help

 

[fuzzybutt love]

I feel less quiet, i've adjusted to what is going to be. Gotta stay positive, right?

I am mid process of making a series of life changes; the car is to be first, second is a different place to stay as the rent will be going up here, 3rd is the chicken coop. I am making a huge effort to be calm and rational, not get too stressed out. The old me would have been bawling, the new me is staying strong.

I am looking for a rent to own, or will be getting one of those trailerpark fixer-uppers for the temporary until i can find what i need. I may possibly be looking for a roomie, one who likes animals and is serious about finances! I want to get to a point where i can talk to a financial adviser and figure out what i can do with my piddly little bit. I have watched the shows and some of those on there are not far above my income and are doing so much better! So i need to learn about this area of life.
I already am being about as frugal as i can be, but know zilch about investing! DH has an aunt that will be able to retire at 40 because she has a financial adviser..................i won't be wanting to retire that early, but would be nice to not worry, right?
I am not leaving DH, there are reasons i don't want to stay at that apartment and he may take time to be comfortable leaving it. All in all, i wouldn't mind having a female friend close at hand anyway! I have this mental picture of having someone to bake with, sew with, talk to when i'm hanging with the birds.......... Probably be nothing like that but it sounds fun

eta that the actual first step was getting a "career" job, so i have completed something! Yay! baby steps
A lot of my "plan" for the next 5 years was mapped out while doing my evening walks, riding my bike to the chickens. 3 years i didn't work!
Was a lot for me to be still that long, took all 3 of them to find my inner voice again. So if you are in a tough spot, don't despair because sometimes things do take time!

 

[Gigiintheforest]

Thanks Gigi. Im not strong- I dont have a choice. Just go through what I have to go through. I am in fact, an animal abuser.
I just brought in my rabbit. going to give it to my coworker. See- I dont even know the past three days- they are all a blur. A blur of the hospital. Chickens had enough food to hold them over and water. I filled their pan overfull. Dogs and cats are in someones face in the house so they get fed on demand. But NOBODY here realized that the rabbit may need food. Or that I own a rabbit. And I was out of food. So, he has only had whatever he could scrounge that would have been spilled in his huge pen.
That is wrong. No matter how you cut it. No excuse. I dont tolerate animal abuse. I just found some dying salad mix in my fridge and put it with him in the bathroom. I will take him with me and give him to my coworker. Her mother owns rabbit paradise and he will live happily ever after. She does not even know I am bringing him. I however, shall admit my sin and take full responsibility for it. I didnt tell anyone to check the rabbit or go buy some sort of food that resembles rabbit food. I simply have existed through the past blur of days.

We've all done things like that that we wish we could redo. But the point is you took care of the situation when you found it out. We just aren't perfect, no matter how much we wish we were. Just got to forgive ourselves and move on. I think you are doing great, just hang in there.

 

[Gigiintheforest]

I feel less quiet, i've adjusted to what is going to be. Gotta stay positive, right?

I am mid process of making a series of life changes; the car is to be first, second is a different place to stay as the rent will be going up here, 3rd is the chicken coop. I am making a huge effort to be calm and rational, not get too stressed out. The old me would have been bawling, the new me is staying strong.

I am looking for a rent to own, or will be getting one of those trailerpark fixer-uppers for the temporary until i can find what i need. I may possibly be looking for a roomie, one who likes animals and is serious about finances! I want to get to a point where i can talk to a financial adviser and figure out what i can do with my piddly little bit. I have watched the shows and some of those on there are not far above my income and are doing so much better! So i need to learn about this area of life.
I already am being about as frugal as i can be, but know zilch about investing! DH has an aunt that will be able to retire at 40 because she has a financial adviser..................i won't be wanting to retire that early, but would be nice to not worry, right?

I am not leaving DH, he's just being stubborn about the apartment and if i stay there the rent will more than double! He is apprehensive about moving from his security.............stalemate.

Good for you, Fuzzy, on making plans. I'm just an old okie but I firmly believe that until you look ahead and think, "gee there are other things I could be doing or other ways I can live," you just end up all stale and unhappy. My first husband HATED change of any kind. I think it scared him and yet he felt it wasn't manly to be scared so he just dissolved into anger and stubborness. But then he died young and so never had a chance to do all the wonderful things he could have. It seems like every time I've stepped off into the "deep end" I've come out much better than before. Just a few thoughts...

 

[fuzzybutt love]

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[fuzzybutt love]

there's your wisdom for the week, lol.

There are two things that stuck with me out of all the sypmathies i got when my little hen died..........
One was your comment, mom, about nearly stopping too when your favorite died. At that moment i knew that you had loved one just as deeply, was able to continue. So i had hope.

The other was oddly enough from my mother, who said that if i gave up my chickens i would never recover my confidence. She cut through the emotion and put a finger on what i had never connected, that my birds are a major source of life confidence for me.

I needed all of you at that moment, and you were there to understand when my non bird loving friends could not understand, and that network was no "small" thing to me either.

As to you, Nova, every time i am faced with a situation at work or otherwise i keep getting the line "time to put on your big girl panties on" in my head, lol.

How is this all connected to my "plan" i'm rambling about? Well, basically my long way of saying thank you all for being there for me and keeping me sane! I am still under a lot of stress but being connected to all of you has grounded me because we are all having a rough time at one point or another. We all put on our big girl panties and do what needs done, give each other kicks in the rear when needed, lol. BS when frustrated, then someone finds some crazy thing to make us laugh.