Granny's gone and done it again

[SourRoses]

when I bought my house in Mi. it had mice. My mom and I were sitting there watching the cat play with it. The cat lost it so I grabbed my sweater and put it on and we walked next door to where she lived. I sat down to drink my coffee and felt something in my hair. I leaned over flipping my hair over asking mom if she seen anything when that mouse came flying out of my hair! I screamed like a little girl a few times. Mom stated that I am now importing them into her house as I jumped in her shower.

Oh my!
But it was the kitty who imported it!

 

[SourRoses]

One time years ago, I was working in the garden and started hearing a strange noise. It was just a short noise. I couldn't determine what it was and it sounded like whatever was making it was on me. I started shaking out my hair, brushing off my clothes but I just couldn't find what kept making this noise. I was starting to get a little excited as it was getting louder. I saw my sister up on the porch so I rushed to her to see if she could find what was on me making this noise. She just laughed and told me to clear my throat. Sure nuff, that's all it was.

Not a bug actually in your throat or anything?

 

[Granny Hatchet]

One time years ago, I was working in the garden and started hearing a strange noise. It was just a short noise. I couldn't determine what it was and it sounded like whatever was making it was on me. I started shaking out my hair, brushing off my clothes but I just couldn't find what kept making this noise. I was starting to get a little excited as it was getting louder. I saw my sister up on the porch so I rushed to her to see if she could find what was on me making this noise. She just laughed and told me to clear my throat. Sure nuff, that's all it was.

I have heard that noise before. hahaa

 

[ShrekDawg]

Would you like me to PM you a list of some good vibes short videos on YouTube?

Sure, thanks

 

[SourRoses]

Not doing well at all. Thinking a lot of very dumb very dark things

When I was really struggling (schizoaffective) I used to read the back of shampoo / soap bottles.
Because there are complex words that make you slow down, and don't really mean much right away, I found it a great distraction. It might not work for you, but try it!

I have a hypothesis, although I can't prove it at all or find a source proposing the same thing... but the actual science part starts with this:
Neurotransmitters are dependent on certain nutrients. That's why some specialty exclusion diets may help some people (but really, the vitamins are quite pervasive, because we actually do need them).
My idea is that instead of trying to avoid them, what about just using them up before rest/sleep.
On that idea I gave myself permission to revert to my natural dreamy state and work on my writing. Other creative tasks helped me too. Heck, even my chicken breeding project helps use up some mental cookies. Just trying to use my imagination a lot has resulted in a feeling of control and relaxation... that I promise you I didn't use to have.
It may be different for everyone, that's why I hesitate to offer suggestions like this...
But imagine your mind is a boat. You can sit in the back of the boat and hope it will steer itself well so you can relax, or you can go up there and grab the steering wheel thingamy and start telling the boat what to do. Even if it fights you. Even if it's not how you think you should spend your time or what other people would think, etc.

 

[BigBlueHen53]

One time years ago, I was working in the garden and started hearing a strange noise. It was just a short noise. I couldn't determine what it was and it sounded like whatever was making it was on me. I started shaking out my hair, brushing off my clothes but I just couldn't find what kept making this noise. I was starting to get a little excited as it was getting louder. I saw my sister up on the porch so I rushed to her to see if she could find what was on me making this noise. She just laughed and told me to clear my throat. Sure nuff, that's all it was.

Oh! There was a frog in your throat? Lol

 

[BigBlueHen53]

@ShrekDawg, did you eat or drink anything weird or different on your day out that might be affecting your thinking/ mood tonight?

 

[ShrekDawg]

When I was really struggling (schizoaffective) I used to read the back of shampoo / soap bottles.
Because there are complex words that make you slow down, and don't really mean much right away, I found it a great distraction. It might not work for you, but try it!

I have a hypothesis, although I can't prove it at all or find a source proposing the same thing... but the actual science part starts with this:
Neurotransmitters are dependent on certain nutrients. That's why some specialty exclusion diets may help some people (but really, the vitamins are quite pervasive, because we actually do need them).
My idea is that instead of trying to avoid them, what about just using them up before rest/sleep.
On that idea I gave myself permission to revert to my natural dreamy state and work on my writing. Other creative tasks helped me too. Heck, even my chicken breeding project helps use up some mental cookies. Just trying to use my imagination a lot has resulted in a feeling of control and relaxation... that I promise you I didn't use to have.
It may be different for everyone, that's why I hesitate to offer suggestions like this...
But imagine your mind is a boat. You can sit in the back of the boat and hope it will steer itself well so you can relax, or you can go up there and grab the steering wheel thingamy and start telling the boat what to do. Even if it fights you. Even if it's not how you think you should spend your time or what other people would think, etc.

Thanks!!! That’s helpful

 

[ShrekDawg]

@ShrekDawg, did you eat or drink anything weird or different on your day out that might be affecting your thinking/ mood tonight?

Nope! Well, I did have some sugar but I always eat/drink sugar. So nothing different. In fact, I’ve been better today. I’ve had exclusively tea and no Mt Dews whatsoever. I think it’s just some sort of self sabotage thing I’m not fully aware of when I have a good day. I’m starting to become aware of it hence why I say not fully aware because I’m a little aware now. But I don’t mean to but I always ruin good days

 

[BigBlueHen53]

Nope! Well, I did have some sugar but I always eat/drink sugar. So nothing different. In fact, I’ve been better today. I’ve had exclusively tea and no Mt Dews whatsoever. I think it’s just some sort of self sabotage thing I’m not fully aware of when I have a good day. I’m starting to become aware of it hence why I say not fully aware because I’m a little aware now. But I don’t mean to but I always ruin good days

Make a note of that in your journal for your next visit to your therapist.