Granny's gone and done it again

I don't like seeing people. Never had friends in school, theres nothing to miss for me.

Its the fact that when I go back, I haven't been in public for over a year.

i can't even imagine the anxiety im going to face
I think there's a lot of that going around, DL. I haven't been to church in over a year, which was my only outing. We're pretty isolated here and I don't know anybody. I think I may have become a little agoraphobic. Is that the right word? I like being a hermit. I feel safe in my little cocoon. It's gonna be scary going out again. But we got our first shots today and we get #2 next month and then. ... i won't have an excuse to stay home.

Oh those typos!!!
 
you need to remember that most of the others havent either. You will all be in the same boat.

I guess, it doesn't make the pain any easier.

Last year I had finally made it to the point where I could get through a school day without feeling sick to my stomach the whole time.

Now I have to restart.
 
I guess, it doesn't make the pain any easier.

Last year I had finally made it to the point where I could get through a school day without feeling sick to my stomach the whole time.

Now I have to restart.
But you did it!!

Now you know you can, so ... surely you can do it again. That's my story anyway, DL. For what it's worth. Does it help to realize that most students feel the exact same way as you do, and are laboring under the motto of "fake it till you make it"? They are all probably wishing they could be as cool as you!

I know this to be true because I heard it from the alumni at my 10-year reunion. In high school I was a shy, fearful, bundle of nerves, full angst and insecurities. I thought I was different and ugly. I was a year younger than my peers and a lot smarter than most. I was sure they all hated me. I was a minority. I kept my head down and talked to no one; I had no friends. Certainly no boys. ... but at the reunion I found out many had envied and admired me and were intimidated by me, too shy to break through the wall of silence I had built around myself. Even the cool boy I had crushed on told me he'd been afraid to talk to me. Dang! Lol.
 
My old vet used to let me drop my animals off while I ran errands or whatever then come back and see the vet later if I had to. He's doing fewer hours now so I'm seeing another vet now. I asked if I could bring Sammy in early, go to PT, then see the vet after. First they said yes but they would have to charge a boarding fee (!), then they said no I would have to stay with him. Do they think I am going to abandon him????? :eek:
Oi.
August 2021. Wont go back this year.

I'll be a senior, class of 2022
I’m old.
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