Came in real quick. Had a great day. I'm not healed. This illness has no cure. Medication can help give you better days. I'll always be dizzy. Some days worse than others. When a storm is moving in, if I eat the wrong trigger food.. I've found a few, if I stress, which I do too easily since Scott passed. I miss him so much, I can't help it when I see something, or smell, something that reminds me of him. Another Holiday Season without him. It isn't easy. When will it get easier? If I get up in the morning and I can walk without looking/feeling like a drunk, I'm grateful, I'm outta here.
I've been able to drive more. This makes me happy. Life can be hard. I've been through a few things for sure throughout my life. But being able to have Scott in in those last 29 years is something that I'm not sure I deserved. I can now also say, wow, I've had some great years. I'm still having grandbabies coming. Makes me smile. Austin and Bronwyn's being here is such a blessing. I can't complain really..but I am human. I'm glad I can pick me up on those good days. I can drive around now and see more of those gorgeous mountains. I love it here. Scott planted us in a good place for retirement. So, now to see how tommorow is. I've actually made plans for it! First time I've dared to in months. I pray this medication keeps working. And as I up it to the suggested dose, I hope I can plan even further out. Granny. I'm feeling bad for you right now. I'll be praying for you. It seems like when it rains it pours at times. You'll get through this stuff that's going on. I've come to think of you as a pretty strong person. Go for a drive, even it's it's just a mile away. Somewhere that you enjoy seeing. Sit and just look. So much to be thankful for even through all of this. Man I hope I'm not coming across as preaching. I don't mean to. Just wanting your spirits lifted. If there is anything you think that I could possibly do for you, let me know. 

