Hope your feeling better today Granny.

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Feeling down is to be expected..still.
You are now going through things without your husband to talk to about them. Including, Dr. visits for both you and Robert. Spring is showing up. He's not there to ask him if he heard the Robins this morning. Or to let him know you saw your first Daffodils. Oh those flowering trees are starting to bud out!
My guess is you're still reaching for things you would have been needing to get for Tom. Such a routine for quite a while. I did that for months.
Enjoy those moments when you see the first springtime things. Think, this one, this would have been Tom's favorite. Brings a smile to your face.
I've been praying all along for you.