You're not at all a horrible person. You're trying to do everything in your power to hatch these baby chicks, while also trying to come up with a solution for a new incubator.Day 10 (chicken incubation, eight days)- I read in an article that candling eggs too much can kill them, so I will candle them tomorrow and then start candling them every two days. The eggs look fine, from what I checked yesterday, but... the first one, you know, the JG one that I believed was the only survivor, might have a blood ring... a good amount of the egg darkened and fogged up with red. Yesterday I found three little red bubbles at the bottom of the yolk.
Side Note- If all of the chicks die, then I am going to take a break from the experiments. A thought popped into my mind today (You know, from the little guilty part of your brain that makes you feel like trash and reminds you of horrible things.) and it was, "What would their mothers think of me? How would they react if they found out that I took their egg, gave it life and failed their baby? Killing it before it could draw breath, but still old enough to have a sentient mind?" I can't get this out of my head now, I will try with all of my might to keep at least one of these babies alive. Not even a flood of exhaustion or hunger will make me forget that I promised their mothers that I would care for them and their babies.
(Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.)
If you weren't trying and just letting chicks die- maybe you're a bad person.
But with all the effort you're putting into it, the constant checking in, updates, research, and the care you have for these unborn chicks proves that you're not a bad person. You're a really good person, with good intentions.