Thank you so,so much.I'm surprised anyone could read my New post as by reading it back I could tell where the tears had blurred my writing and where the pain hit, yes there is a gaping great hole in my heart, I took a chance in telling not knowing if I came across as a demented shacking blamonge! so thanks for understanding and for teaching me a few things I didn't know.
So as you don't think I'm totaly bonkers, the hot water bottles and the things that heat up in the microwave was put in after I cleaned out and put new stuff in, so while they were telling me stories and we played the games they picked up on quickly their house was warming, I never left any of the items in the house I took out at the last moment when I had to lock them back up, their little chats to each other as they climbed the ramp to carefully look in told me they were happy bunnies, (chickens). So thank you for letting me tell of my mental state.
The second item is bless you all for caring....... that should be the first thing I said really, xxx