I hope he is, too. It's amazing what chickens can do. I'm the same way...I know chopping off their head or wringing their neck is supposed to be the simplest and most pain free for them, but for us???? But...we were able to get the State Agriculture department to euthanize one of our birds for us...they said they were going to use her for class lectures at OSU, and I couldn't think of a better way for her to go! It was a lot cheaper than having a vet do it...they just charged us $12.00 for the euthanasia, though they did a necropsy too that we paid more for. Just a thought...I don't know if other State ag departments will do the same, but it's worth looking into, maybe, for those of us who can't stand the alternative. Everyone will face this, who has chickens, sooner or later.