Thank you all.
I went to sleep last night and he was up watching a DVD on model aircraft on the laptop and this morning he had fallen out of his chair, stone cold, his lips blue and stomach starting to distend. I called 911 but it was too late for them to do anything, I knew it anyway.
Hasn't sunk in for our 6 yr old daughter yet. She says she's sad but so far seems more excited that aunts, grandparents and cousins are calling and talking to her. A friend came over and spent the morning with me. My dad is here for the day now, my mom is coming up from Ann Arbor and staying through the funeral.
DH, Wayne, was so excited about summer, saying he was going to quit smoking, go out and fly his model aircraft, looking forward to maybe even horseback riding. He just got his cel-phone going last Friday and wanted to go to
TSC today to look at welding equipment. We wanted to get a pony for our daughter and I was going to call the people today to tell them we were going to buy it ...
I wish I had checked on him, I wish I had gotten up in the middle of the night for some reason, but I didn't. I'll never talk to him again. I want to tell him I'm sorry I didn't get up or that we didn't spend more time together last night ...
He has a daughter from a previous marriage and no will and now stuff is going to go to probate and I don't want to deal with that either ...