I just found this and wanted to let you know that your still in my prayers. In your moments of greiving, regardless to the people around you, take your time, plant a fruit tree to show how much love you felt for such a little one and you will not forget.
At this point, your child is in the arms of those on the spirit side of life, safe and healthy. It amazes me how a woman can love this life that is growing within. Even how most of us can love something beyond our imagination, feel heart felt joy and pain without ever actually holding this gift from God.
Please know that you will be in the prayers of many, including myself, positive thoughts and don't give up, you will have another chance to be a mommy again. It will only raise your love for those that have gone on ahead of you. Another baby does not take away from the children that have been lost, it adds to the whole experience.
God bless you and yours. I hope you heal and this brings you closer to your loved ones. ~Kel