Oh Andi, you bring me hope that there IS a chance for those of us that are alone! I split from my ex in February of 2004. I tried dating, and the only serious relationship I've had since we split was with a really great guy, but I just couldn't connect with him. I couldn't move past the "like" phase. I also suffer from depression, though it's not really openly obvious, and when my seratonin levels are low, I tend to be numb to things, so I can't be sure if it was the depression speaking, or whether I just honestly couldn't get past the "like" phase. Either way, he kept accusing me of talking a lot about my ex, and that made me angry. Of course I was talking a lot about my ex. The bf would ask me where my kids were, they were with my ex. Why was I so upset that day? Cause the ex called me a picked a fight. He seemed to not want me to ever mention or speak to my ex, and that ticked me off. When you have kids with a guy, and you separate, you are still involved indirectly with that person for the rest of your life, whether you want to be or not. I called it quits though when the bf started talking marriage and kids after only 4 months together. I've been alone ever since, and I'm happy. My mother tries to push me to date, says she doesn't want me to be lonely like her (my dad walked out on my mom as soon as he found out she was pregnant and would not get an abortion, and she has only dated one guy since then, and that jerk was only dating her to get to her younger sister!). She hasn't dated in 31 years. I don't necessarily WANT to be alone for the rest of my life, but I also don't want to settle. I keep hoping that I'll find a good guy someday, and I haven't lost hope, but where I live now, meeting guys is virtually impossible. So for now, I'm concentration on graduating college and spending time with my kids and my chickens, and if the right guy happens to walk into my life, I hope I'm smart enough to see him for what he is, and snatch him up fast!!!!!
