- Thread starter
- #11
- Feb 17, 2014
- 178
- 72
- 156
Oh, this breaks my heart. I've nothing to offer right now, unfortunately, particularly after the two previous loving and eloquent responses. I will pray for you. Remember always our Rock of Ages, God in Heaven who holds us in steadfast, abounding love—the God of All Comfort. Jesus is called the "Man of many sorrows"—He is God come to earth as a human being, just like us, and He certainly lost loved ones during His life on this earth. Isaiah tells us He is not just Mighty God, but our Wonderful Counselor and Prince of Peace.
So often the gospel of Mark tells us that Jesus is moved with pity or compassion for those who are ill or hungry or weary. Imagine how much more He is looking on you with love right now, knowing you have lost your beautiful and beloved wife!
You probably remember Jesus telling us we'd have troubles in this life. But He also told us He would be with us always, "even to the end of the age". He is trustworthy; He understands; He cares. If He can and does forgive us for our trespasses against His perfection (a forgiveness purchased with His own life!), He can and will walk through the valleys with us, 'til He calls us home.
Please do not lose hope. In all things look to Christ, rely on Him. Even in the deepest darkness, He is there!
I don't mind replying to the comments, it seems to help express what otherwise would be pent up emotion and there's plenty to go around.
Besides Susie now being with the Lord and it ending her suffering, the other blessing has been that it has brought me closer to God.
I plan to make good on my promise to meet her again in Heaven and I will stop at nothing to prepare my soul for that eventuality.
As with everyone, I am a work in progress, so I pray for his guidance to show me the way.
For now I have not lost hope, but I have lost purpose with my need for caregiving having ended. I'm working on replacing that with something constructive, but it will take time.
I'm trying to take care of myself, but I have to be honest, it's not been easy.
I lost 10 lbs in the 2 month ordeal leading up to her passing and that event didn't do anything for my appetite. I think I went about 3 days without eating anything, but I've been working on making sure I eat even if I don't feel like it.
I felt and looked like a homeless person, complete with overgrown hair, scruffy beard and disheveled clothes, but I've rectified that as well. I was so immersed in taking care of Susie that everything else went out the window.
Anyway, it's time to pick up the pieces of my life and reinvent myself.