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I know how to process birds but I decided to take mine to a processor because my own birds are a little more personal to me. I "could" do it, but ended up taking them over to Martins.
The first time I took cockerels for processing I began to cry just as I was driving into the drive. Luckily it was very early in the morning (I take them early so they don't have to be in a cage in an unfamiliar area overnight) and it was dark so no one could see I was crying. I cried all the way home. I was miserable all day long.
When I went to pick them up, they were still finishing up processing some and I was sitting in the little office and the work area door was open. All of a sudden, the ladies all began to sing "Faith of our Fathers" (Martins are Mennonite and all their ladies go to church together). It just felt like a little bit of "grace" from God when I was in such dismay.
I've since been able to take others without all the crying (especially mean ones) but it is never easy to do.