Life is changing for us, and it is not for a positive reason

[sumi]

We're listening, Debi. Sometimes we just don't know what to say.

Like me, for one, don't always have the right words at the right time, but you and Ken are still in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Kansaseq]

Yea, we're here. I may not always know what to say (Don't want to say something stupid by mistake, and I'm known for doing that, sometimes). But we are here, listening and supporting you and Ken.

 

[rosewolf22002]

I third that! I love you both an am scared to death when he wears himself out. I am elated when he is doing great. I stress when you have a hard time. I really hope you feel our love. Even when we don't know what to say.

 

[debilorrah]

I am having a hard time tonight and there is no reason for it. Other than the obvious. Ken is doing well. He pushed too far today, but not like normal, he was in a good mood too.

I suppose the source of this is having to sign up employees at work for long term disability insurance. I think it just reminded me of where I am and who I love and that his life may be too short for my liking.

 

[cassie]

Debi,

Your life and your emotions are on a roller coaster. It is not surprising that you have your ups and downs. This is small comfort, but none of us knows how much time we have on this earth. We all have a limited amount of time, but most of the time we don't think about it at all. The only thing good I can think of about being confronted with a terminal illness is that it gives you time to build memories and say your goodbyes. I didn't have that. My husband of 45 years had a stroke one morning and in the blink of an eye he was gone.

I think about you every day. The only thing I know for sure is that it is vitally important that you take care of yourself as best you can so you have the strength to get through the day.

 

[debilorrah]

Debi,

Your life and your emotions are on a roller coaster. It is not surprising that you have your ups and downs. This is small comfort, but none of us knows how much time we have on this earth. We all have a limited amount of time, but most of the time we don't think about it at all. The only thing good I can think of about being confronted with a terminal illness is that it gives you time to build memories and say your goodbyes. I didn't have that. My husband of 45 years had a stroke one morning and in the blink of an eye he was gone.

I think about you every day. The only thing I know for sure is that it is vitally important that you take care of yourself as best you can so you have the strength to get through the day.

I am doing my best to take care of myself. I know I am tired. That is about all I DO know right now. I am just feeling morose lately. Not so much a pity party as the denial is starting to chip away and I really don't want that.

 

[rosewolf22002]

Just remember to tell a friend that your denial is starting to flake and that they should be waiting for a phone call. When my friend lost both of her parents I got calls all hours, Day and night. It helps!

 

[onedoodle3]

You know, talking to your self is normal. Now if your are talking to yourself and having a full fledged conversation in....say, the grocery store...then you know you've lost it.

But seriously: this hug's for you

 

[shadow rabbit10]

Even though we don't always respond, there are things we want to say that we may not know how to say. Just know that no matter what happens, or if you're talking to yourself or not, you and your family are still in our thoughts. Bless you both.

 

[debilorrah]

Am I in denial even though I know I am and just not willing to face everything head on?