I hunt, trap, etc., eat wild game of all sorts. But the first chicken I ate that I killed (wasn't a broiler, but an extra roo with personality) I chewed and chewed and that meat was just a lump that was right hard to swallow. Now.. fast forward 2 years, and it dont bother me a bit. I made chicken and noodles one day with them, something I really like. And I ate a bite, and pushed the pictures out of my head, then ate another bite, and then another. By the time I was done with that meal, eating my own chickens didnt bother me anymore. This year for the first time I have broilers, they should be ready in three weeks or so. I enjoy eating my own chickens now. It's all in your head, so just try to push it away, and prepare the first few in recipes you love. The first one might be hard to eat, but it gets easier from there.