Oh, my goodness, I would have been devastated!!
BYC is just about the nicest and most supportive online community of any I've ever visited. Here, you are safe, and so many of us have been there in our own ways.
I'm glad you shared this, because it makes me feel like less of a monster for the role I feel I played in the death of my dear hen Dune Buggy last month.
We do our absolute best, everything just right, and yet things like this happen. With chickens I'm learning death is swift, and it's my belief that they don't process pain in the same way we do. We can only relate to them through the guise of our own pain and suffering, but then again we are perfectly human and they are perfectly feathered and not human, and that means there's this whole other world being lived out right in front of us we like to think we understand but perhaps we don't, not fully.
But I do wish I could have feathers and a beak for a day.
Peace and love to you and your fluffy brood!