And herein lay the greatest dilemma....how to keep friendly, lovely chickens...and then later kill them. Those of us who are nurturers by nature really struggle with this. I had an online conversation with an accomplished breeder who lives not far from me regarding a very young bird I had some concerns about. She was very blunt about culling this chick...and it WAS still a chick...and I felt something in my head gasp and withdraw in horror. Kill a chick? I can't kill a chick! I literally stand over the incubator willing each chick to emerge healthy, and the fluff up and take their first steps before I dip their beaks to teach them how to drink an scatter food on the floor of their brooder to teach them to eat....and she wanted me to kill the chick? Yeah...well...she was right. I couldn't bring myself to do it, always hoping it would get better and start hopping around, but instead it died a slow, miserable death and I felt more guilty over letting it suffer than I would have had I mustered up the courage to cull it quickly.
And right now I've got one little hatchling with an injured leg. It's been three days since it hatched and it's still holding up it's right leg, rarely putting any pressure on it and seemingly unable to fully straighten it out. I check on this little guy multiple times per day, pick him up and inspect the leg, weigh him to see if he's eating and drinking and monitor his behavior to see if he's even interested in food. Day 3 and he doesn't appear to be getting any better. He'll eat and drink small amounts and his weight has stabilized, but I know his leg is deformed. I know what I should do....I just haven't been able to bring myself to do it.