Needing hugs and prayers - GOD WHY do U DO THIS?????????????????????

[Boyd]

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I got sucked into their deli, 3 containers of fried chicken, one whole chicken garlic n herb and a pound of mac n cheese

They have a great bakery inside also, and i love the tomato basil bread

 

[Boyd]

you know, tonight is the first time i actully slowed down enough to think about "what if's"

I shouldn't be, but its scary. I am still plowing through the book, but its still difficult not to be angry with god. Right now I feel like I could take the devil 2 out of 3 falls for control of hell, and go from there.

 

[wyliefarms]

My brother is going through all of the what if's with his wife's cancer spreading. Continuing to lift you up in prayers and the doctors for wisdom.

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[wyliefarms]

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I got sucked into their deli, 3 containers of fried chicken, one whole chicken garlic n herb and a pound of mac n cheese

They have a great bakery inside also, and i love the tomato basil bread

That sounds really good!!!!!

 

[AK Michelle]

Learn anything new today? Did they decide on a course of action yet?

 

[gritsar]

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Sometimes the what ifs are the scariest part.

 

[kargo]

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I never let myself consider the what ifs. I stubbornly set myself on "It won't happen." mode and look where that got me....

I wanted to emphasize this part. I know exactly what you mean. When my dad was sick, I jus kept wondering why. I hated to admit it to myself, but I did get angry with God. I've calmed down a lot now. Maybe in a little whilte you;ll calm down, too.

Good luck to both of you! I'm still praying for you.

 

[Sillystunt]

what the newest news boyd? How are things going for you and the family?

 

[LauraSBale]

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Boyd,
oh your bring tears to me,
I took my son to his 18 month check up and the doc felt that his right kidney felt large, so he sent us right to st johns hosp in Det, did a ultra sound and that night he was checked in the hosp, and we are being told that there is a tumor on his kidney, 2 days later they removed the kidney and adrenal gland, 3 days later they told us he had Clear cell sarcoma, and that we were lucky that the doc felt it, thats its a very aggressive cancer, and his next check would be in 6 months and by then it would have been through his whole body, 5 days later he started chemo and radiation, we just sold are house on the east side and bought a house in Byron, for the next 6 months i took him down to st johns in det for 6 days of chemo, i would stay in the hosp with him. every 10 days we did this, and give him injects and clean his broveac the tub that came out of his chest and in heart to him main vain to put the chemo in,.

when the chemo was done a month later i finally broke down, and asked God why this happened to him,. every body always asked, how do you stay so strong, I just said i have to for Christian if i break down who will take care of him, i dont have time to think, just thinking of him,

i cried for weeks, i finally talk to his doc about every thing that Christian has been through, all the test and poking and probing and you know, he said, dont blame your self, or any thing you did, or God, its the environment we live in, the air, the water, the pollution, the additives in are foods, and he said what you need now is for God to help pull you together so you can go on and be Strong. and for 7 years Christian still had to have test, ultra sound, scans done.
I know what i went through doesn't help you and your family at this time in your life.
but if i didn't have God and my angles and Christian angles around me, I wouldn't been able to be a good mom and take care of just him for those 6 months, and every time he had test after that.

its alright to mad angry frustrated,

but dont what if yourself its not worth it,

day to day is what you need to do now and keep the faith, sometimes thats all we have to have make through the day.

your daughter will be in my prays and heart.

 

[wyliefarms]

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Boyd,
oh your bring tears to me,
I took my son to his 18 month check up and the doc felt that his right kidney felt large, so he sent us right to st johns hosp in Det, did a ultra sound and that night he was checked in the hosp, and we are being told that there is a tumor on his kidney, 2 days later they removed the kidney and adrenal gland, 3 days later they told us he had Clear cell sarcoma, and that we were lucky that the doc felt it, thats its a very aggressive cancer, and his next check would be in 6 months and by then it would have been through his whole body, 5 days later he started chemo and radiation, we just sold are house on the east side and bought a house in Byron, for the next 6 months i took him down to st johns in det for 6 days of chemo, i would stay in the hosp with him. every 10 days we did this, and give him injects and clean his broveac the tub that came out of his chest and in heart to him main vain to put the chemo in,.

when the chemo was done a month later i finally broke down, and asked God why this happened to him,. every body always asked, how do you stay so strong, I just said i have to for Christian if i break down who will take care of him, i dont have time to think, just thinking of him,

i cried for weeks, i finally talk to his doc about every thing that Christian has been through, all the test and poking and probing and you know, he said, dont blame your self, or any thing you did, or God, its the environment we live in, the air, the water, the pollution, the additives in are foods, and he said what you need now is for God to help pull you together so you can go on and be Strong. and for 7 years Christian still had to have test, ultra sound, scans done.
I know what i went through doesn't help you and your family at this time in your life.
but if i didn't have God and my angles and Christian angles around me, I wouldn't been able to be a good mom and take care of just him for those 6 months, and every time he had test after that.

its alright to mad angry frustrated,

but dont what if yourself its not worth it,

day to day is what you need to do now and keep the faith, sometimes thats all we have to have make through the day.

your daughter will be in my prays and heart.

Laura-

Your story is an inspiration. Thank you for sharing. How is your son doing now?

Sarah