So I am in my late thirties. I have 5 kiddos and a wonderful DH. My DH has been too sick for work and has been a stay at home dad for the last several years. I have no problem being the bread winner I am very ambitious and love coming home to happy kids a clean house and well fed chickens. I left my well paid corporate job and went back to graduate school. Right before the market crashed. I admit it was not the best timing with such a large family. I recently with my Masters in Counseling Psychology and can't find work as a therapist. Can't go back to what I was doing as there are simply no openings and far more qualified applicants. So with Master's degree in hand, I just got a job as a housekeeper for pennies, especially compared to what we were making before I went back to school. I am ready to build my private practice for clients and scared I won't get any and will be scrubbing toilets for the rest of my life. That would all be hard enough except that I just found out I am pregnant with kiddo number 6. Maybe it is my hormones or the fact that my family has sacrificed a lot for me to go to school but now I am in a bit of a funk. I worry about even making rent not to mention bills. I worry about being homeless all the time. I keep telling myself things like "I am just beginning my career and once it takes off we will be okay" I also tell myself that I love my family and am thankful and blessed to have a household full of love and support the way I do" But I am scared out of my mind that I can barely support all of us as it is now and it is about to get a lot harder. I feel sad for my kiddos that they can't and don't have a lot of opportunities that other kids in the neighborhood have. Things they used to have things we used to do together. We lost our house we downgraded to a two bedroom 800sqft rental house. Yes, we are cramped, and then there was 8 . We had to sell our nice big new Dependable SUV and now drive a two door old car that I am afraid will breakdown anyday. I am not trying to complain although I guess I am but could ya'll send some prayers for me that things look up that with this new obstacle there will be new opportunities? Please tonight when you send your thoughts to God mention me and pray for my family that we get though this.