I have 28 Cornish Crosses about a month away from butchering and I am dreading it too. I have helped my son in his FFA class and couldn't be part of the killing process but will be ok with the cleaning part of it. I told my husband from the start that I would not be able to kill them. We got some pullets about 3 weeks before we started these Cornish X. From the beginning I made sure to get attached to the Cornish. My little laying pullets are different. I feed, water and make sure the Cornish have clean bedding and what they need to don't try to befriend them like I do the layers.