As I sit here and think about a new year starting and the last one ending, all I can think about is how CRAPPY 2009 was!!!!. Now before I go on, let me say that I feel bad for even thinking that cause I know that every breath I draw is a blessing form God. I know He loves me and will never leave me. Here is the deal: In all my 26 years on this earth, I have never had a year that has been more troubled or filled with more trials. The last 6 months have really been bad. Everything I have done has fallen apart! I don't mean big things. I mean little every day things, but its EVERYDAY!!! To just name a few: Cut backs at work both in number of hours as well as hourly pay Had to deal with a CRAZY girlfriend(she is an ex now thank God) that was almost the death of me!!! While doing some tune up work on my truck, I broke off a spark plug and now I need to have the head re-worked (not cheap) Lots of plumbing problems (I hate plumbing) The truck I bought was doing just fine till about 2 months ago and then it has been one thing after another Then toward the end of October, I started dating somebody(We'll call her Jane). Things with Jane and I have been going great till about three weeks ago. Nothing too big in the long run but it was hell for me at its peak!!!! If it hadn't been for a mutual friend of ours, I would have not stood by Jane the way she was treating me. Things are much better now but not like they were. I really hope they are headed back that way!!! And one other thing: This may be hard for some to understand, but the Lord has really been making my heart heavy with something. I don't know what to call it but I know its something!!! Its not conviction, not sadness, not fear. But I'm just so emotional about God and His love for me!!!! Now I have been a Christian for a long time, but I have never felt like this!!!! I mean I can't even sing regular peppy songs at church without tearing up!!!! To sum this thing up I'll say this: 2009 would have to be one of if not the worst years of my life. There have been so many trials and troubles. To the point to where I don't know how much more I can take. I'm truly at my wits end. Even in the midst of these storms and trials, I truly beleive the Lord has something planned for me!!!! I don't ask that He take away the storms He has given me, but I pray ( and ask you to pray) that He helps me sail through them. So I guess the reason I posted this is because I wanted to ask if you would pray for me. I need wisdom, strength and peace. I'm not wanting pity or anything, just prayer and advise! Thanks in advance!!!!