JJ, you are 26, I'm 46, and trust me, things can get much worse and much better. I'm not going into detail but I can empathize with you in so many ways, my life has just come unraveled in the last 6 months of this decade. My faith was shaken years ago when I was kicked out of my church for my divorce. Now sometimes I feel like I'm being punished all the way around. Sometimes I feel God is trying to bring me closer, other times he's up there laughing like hell at me and my Goddess is laughing right along with him. I've avoided relationships for the past 10 years because I just couldn't deal with the drama any longer and now I have trouble even going out with someone on a date or just for fun, I go alone now. I hope your year turns into a good one, it won't overnight, but it can get better.
Lean on those you trust, leave those you don't, cleave to those you love and separate from those who would use and hurt you.
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
