Not sure what to think

[ChickenAlgebra]

Full disclosure - my male biological material donor was a Vietnam War vet. He did likely have PTSD or some problems from that.

But he just died. I feel nothing but happiness. He and the female donor are nothing but horrible, evil, sick people. They should have been in jail years ago, but no one in town would ever do anything to a good soldier or his lovely wife. Yet, they successfully managed to kill my middle sister. Tried as hard as they could to kill me and my youngest sister. Granted, it was middle sister's choices that killed her, but those are what we were all taught, and when I tried to help, it wasn't allowed and she gave up and killed herself.

I was the evil child because I didn't drink, didn't smoke, didn't use illegal drugs, went to school, didn't sleep with anyone just because I could. I was beaten and whipped repeatedly for not doing those things.

I was worse than scum because I married DH who threatened my parents if they came near me again.

Was lower when I tried to help middle sister.

Hit the lowest level possible when I drug my youngest sister out after middle did kill herself. That was also the last time I've had spoken contact with either donor.

Yes, I know, PTSD did screw up him. I know the help DH has had now was not there then. But I don't remember the donor from before, only after. I only know the sick, vile, evil person who was the material donor to me, and nothing else.

So now I'm having people ticked at me because I won't be bothered to go back to hell on earth for the funeral for a good soldier. Well, if I went back, it's like I told the female donor repeatedly - it won't be until she's dead and gone also, and even then, I'm only going to spit on their graves, turn around and never go back.

They made their choices, I've made mine. Why can't people leave it be now? I was fine until the nosy busy bodies who were all too happy to ignore what happened to my sisters and me feel the need to tell me to come home.

 

[Rhett&SarahsMom]

Nothing but

 

[redhen]

Dont worry about what others think. Just follow your heart and gut on this... its noones choice but YOURS.
Sorry about all you went through..

 

[b.hromada]

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I totally agree.

 

[I have WHAT in my yard?]

I am sorry for you. More than you can know.

He's dead -- so who gives a rat's about him?

If these people bugging you matter to you, you decide based on how YOU feel about them. If you don't care about their opinion then don't trouble yourself over this. He made his choices. You made yours. Sounds like you have the right to be proud of yours and he may have alot of answering to do at the pearly gates!

You have the right to grieve the fact that he is gone. Because now it is final, he will never be the father you deserved, or the person that just perhaps he could have been.

So, if you want to go to allow yourself to grieve for who he was NOT. Go ahead. Let other think as they will.

If you wish to not go because of who he was, then go ahead and stay home. Let others think as they will.

He's dead. It's all about you now.

 

[sfw2]

I agree.

 

[CityGirlintheCountry]

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What Red said.

to you for having to deal with it.

to the busybodies causing trouble.

 

[Sonoran Silkies]

It might help YOU if you DO tell those who are berating you how your parents treated you, and how you feel about those who stood by and did nothing. Not sure exactly what happened to your middle sister, but there are no statutes of limitations on murder; not sure about manslaughter.

 

[debilorrah]

Tell them all to take a long walk off a short pier and move right along with your life.

 

[ChickenAlgebra]

Sasha OD'ed while the donors went on whatever. So they aren't responsible directly, she did exactly what they taught. They weren't charged, despite everything. I got youngest sister, we left and that was it.