- Apr 28, 2010
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I wrote this to melty but decided to copy and paste so you could see some more of my inner thoughts and workings.
I just want to have my dd's room painted and done before she leaves. The other stuff can wait. I guess I felt like I wanted her to feel like she had a room...she doesn't even have a bed now....we've all been sleeping on the couch...it's cooler for one and plus our beds aren't put together and Zoe...well, we just ordered her a bunk bed since we gave hers with the slide to her little sister...she was sad about it but she's getting big and it's time to pass it on to Ava.
We got her one with steps..not the ladder, so her cat could still walk up and get in bed with her...that was an important feature...he used to walk up her slide. Plus this one has a bed on the bottom where her old bed did not...so this will be good for sleep overs. It gets delivered on friday so we're excited about that. I want her to feel involved with the process...we've been picking colors to go with the quilts we just picked out and today in the midst of Ava's tea party melt down we were sitting there watching a HGTV program on a show decorating a kid's bedroom and they had some cute ideas...so me and Zoe were sittin there cuddling and watching tv during the melt down and I would tell Zoe when she would say something about A---V---A....just ignore her.
Ava's thing is to have these OUTRAGEOUS tantrums as if her anger will result in what she wants...but it doesn't work that way. You don't have candy for breakfast and you don't have a teaparty on my new carpet....you eat your breakfast and fruit that I made ya and THEN we can talk about a peice of candy later on. I said you can have a teaparty outside or on the kitchen floor but not on my new carpet...screaming and stomping feet and throwing things will get you NOTHING. I will not reward that behavior. It's ridiculous.
Things were peaceful until I realized her tea party was about to get a real tea kettle brought into the mix and I KNOW she drenches EVERYTHING...so when I realized she didn't want to "pretend" and just use the dixie cups she found but actually wanted to pour stuff in the 9 or so cups she had around her mini doll table...and I said, "no" which is the ONE word in Ava's dictionary that pre-empts her to FREAK out mode in .08 seconds...and suggested if she wanted to do that then she had to move her tea party from the living room to the porch or kitchen floor cuz it's messy....I was not expecting her to MELT DOWN...but then in retrospect...I did say, "no," but not no to it all...just no not on the carpet.
geesh...I mean...come on...it's not like I took her stinky bear away or something like that where I could understand her emotions... So I guess that's what's got me miffed...she is being naughty sassy if she hears the word "no," or if she's asked politely something by either me or grandma she's been naughty sassy and told US "no." Like, "Ava can you go bring me some paper towels please?"..."NO!" What the hey? Usually she LIKES to help. I guess all of everything has got to be percieved by the children and they are acting out on it...because Zoe can slightly stub her toe swinging and she makes sure I've noticed and then she'll hold her leg and cry...like big cry but so forced it's mostly fake kind of cry. Cry cry cry...whine whine whine... It's really quite crazy around here.
I felt bad later and when they really wanted to come with me to go do a few errands I told them to tell grandma they were comin with and they ran out and jumped in. I thought...I've only got them so much longer...why not have them tag along if that's what they want to do? We had to go by one of mom's friends houses to pick up a book for the book club mom's in so she can read the book and then stop by my old house to shut the windows for the forcasted storm and then we had to chase the chickens, ducks, and turkey butt in the coop so we could shut them in but it was still light out so they were not ready but it didn't matter....I wasn't comin back so they had to go in.
Then we picked up a pizza---The Recession Buster--lg. pizza 1 topping, italian salad (greens, pepperoni, sausage, mozz. cheese, onion, pepperchinis, and tomatoes), and 2 liter pop for $10. We blasted the music, opened the windows on the way home....then after dinner we had a few minutes of fun in the pool....got washed up and the girls were laughin in the tub much to the delight and amusment of my highschool photography teacher while were TRYING really hard to converse and make arangements for coop plans, raised garden bed plans, and gifting some old furniture in the wood shop I have no use for so he needs to come pick up....we got done with our baths and brushed our hair and spent time with the kitties. It ended up a good night...even if my outside furniture is somewhere south of here. ha ha ha.
I need this time with my girls and I need the help from those who have offered to help and I need to just trust some of thier judgement calls to make without me because I'm REALLY stressed...it's really emotional having to leave my childhood home that's been a part of me AND my girls since our births...and we need to go to the park, walk the dogs, go to the beach and build sand castles....and let our concerns melt away in this wretched heat. Time is going by too quickly....I'm dreading my girls departure...I need to make some memories...thanks to all to remind me to "tea party" even if there's a mess and things looming in the background. I can make time for a tea party after all. My little girls need me now more than ever. I'm sooo sad.
I just want to have my dd's room painted and done before she leaves. The other stuff can wait. I guess I felt like I wanted her to feel like she had a room...she doesn't even have a bed now....we've all been sleeping on the couch...it's cooler for one and plus our beds aren't put together and Zoe...well, we just ordered her a bunk bed since we gave hers with the slide to her little sister...she was sad about it but she's getting big and it's time to pass it on to Ava.
We got her one with steps..not the ladder, so her cat could still walk up and get in bed with her...that was an important feature...he used to walk up her slide. Plus this one has a bed on the bottom where her old bed did not...so this will be good for sleep overs. It gets delivered on friday so we're excited about that. I want her to feel involved with the process...we've been picking colors to go with the quilts we just picked out and today in the midst of Ava's tea party melt down we were sitting there watching a HGTV program on a show decorating a kid's bedroom and they had some cute ideas...so me and Zoe were sittin there cuddling and watching tv during the melt down and I would tell Zoe when she would say something about A---V---A....just ignore her.
Ava's thing is to have these OUTRAGEOUS tantrums as if her anger will result in what she wants...but it doesn't work that way. You don't have candy for breakfast and you don't have a teaparty on my new carpet....you eat your breakfast and fruit that I made ya and THEN we can talk about a peice of candy later on. I said you can have a teaparty outside or on the kitchen floor but not on my new carpet...screaming and stomping feet and throwing things will get you NOTHING. I will not reward that behavior. It's ridiculous.
Things were peaceful until I realized her tea party was about to get a real tea kettle brought into the mix and I KNOW she drenches EVERYTHING...so when I realized she didn't want to "pretend" and just use the dixie cups she found but actually wanted to pour stuff in the 9 or so cups she had around her mini doll table...and I said, "no" which is the ONE word in Ava's dictionary that pre-empts her to FREAK out mode in .08 seconds...and suggested if she wanted to do that then she had to move her tea party from the living room to the porch or kitchen floor cuz it's messy....I was not expecting her to MELT DOWN...but then in retrospect...I did say, "no," but not no to it all...just no not on the carpet.
geesh...I mean...come on...it's not like I took her stinky bear away or something like that where I could understand her emotions... So I guess that's what's got me miffed...she is being naughty sassy if she hears the word "no," or if she's asked politely something by either me or grandma she's been naughty sassy and told US "no." Like, "Ava can you go bring me some paper towels please?"..."NO!" What the hey? Usually she LIKES to help. I guess all of everything has got to be percieved by the children and they are acting out on it...because Zoe can slightly stub her toe swinging and she makes sure I've noticed and then she'll hold her leg and cry...like big cry but so forced it's mostly fake kind of cry. Cry cry cry...whine whine whine... It's really quite crazy around here.
I felt bad later and when they really wanted to come with me to go do a few errands I told them to tell grandma they were comin with and they ran out and jumped in. I thought...I've only got them so much longer...why not have them tag along if that's what they want to do? We had to go by one of mom's friends houses to pick up a book for the book club mom's in so she can read the book and then stop by my old house to shut the windows for the forcasted storm and then we had to chase the chickens, ducks, and turkey butt in the coop so we could shut them in but it was still light out so they were not ready but it didn't matter....I wasn't comin back so they had to go in.
Then we picked up a pizza---The Recession Buster--lg. pizza 1 topping, italian salad (greens, pepperoni, sausage, mozz. cheese, onion, pepperchinis, and tomatoes), and 2 liter pop for $10. We blasted the music, opened the windows on the way home....then after dinner we had a few minutes of fun in the pool....got washed up and the girls were laughin in the tub much to the delight and amusment of my highschool photography teacher while were TRYING really hard to converse and make arangements for coop plans, raised garden bed plans, and gifting some old furniture in the wood shop I have no use for so he needs to come pick up....we got done with our baths and brushed our hair and spent time with the kitties. It ended up a good night...even if my outside furniture is somewhere south of here. ha ha ha.
I need this time with my girls and I need the help from those who have offered to help and I need to just trust some of thier judgement calls to make without me because I'm REALLY stressed...it's really emotional having to leave my childhood home that's been a part of me AND my girls since our births...and we need to go to the park, walk the dogs, go to the beach and build sand castles....and let our concerns melt away in this wretched heat. Time is going by too quickly....I'm dreading my girls departure...I need to make some memories...thanks to all to remind me to "tea party" even if there's a mess and things looming in the background. I can make time for a tea party after all. My little girls need me now more than ever. I'm sooo sad.
