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[wegotchickens]

Beth G. :

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Rants are good anyday. Go for it I dont' mind

No, it was not a fun rant. That's why I removed it. Am e-mailing my sister instead....​

 

[Beth G.]

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Rants are good anyday. Go for it I dont' mind

No, it was not a fun rant. That's why I removed it. Am e-mailing my sister instead....

Oh Boy, Poor Sis her eyes will be burnin.....jk

 

[wegotchickens]

Beth G. :

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No, it was not a fun rant. That's why I removed it. Am e-mailing my sister instead....

Oh Boy, Poor Sis her eyes will be burnin.....jk

Poor sis, indeed. I didn't send her the rant. Her M-i-l found out her blood cancer is back

So sis is a little preoccupied with her own stressors. I figured she didn't need mine.

 

[wegotchickens]

RANT AHEAD.

I hate it when Friday starts off badly.
Yesterday didn't really end well but I tried to let it go so today would be a fresh start. But it didn't work out that way.

DD is really unhappy and that scares the hell out of me.
They gave her xylophone to another kid who came back when he was supposed to have moved away. He's much better than she is, since he's played it for 3 years. She was given this little POS set of bells that fell apart when she tried to carry it back to the bandroom. She thought she broke it and cried. But others helped reassamble it and told her its broken like that before. It's way too small for her and she has to hunch over to play it. The band director is a butthead and there's nothing I can do or say that won't make things worse. I know that.
It's the first time since band started that I've seen her unhappy. And school itself did not go well yesterday, either. She had to deal with some buttheads. I knew it would happen. So she was terribly blue last night. It doesn't help that next Tuesday is the first anniversary of us losing her sister.

Poor DH got to watch me totally fall apart after I got to our bedroom. I mean I totally and completely bawled like a baby. He's very aware that I've had 3-4 hours of sleep every night this week, and that I've been crying a lot when no one is around. Poor guy bought me a new dehydrator because he doesn't know what else to do and wants to distract me. And he's being amazingly supportive of my birds, despite the fact that I have 64 total beaks I'm feeding.

This morning DD and I were both totally stressed out and barely got her out the door on time. I won't see her again until almost midnight. In the chaos, her cell phone was still plugged in when the bus came. She was leaving without it but I wanted her to have it. So I went racing out the front door with it, leaped over the set of stairs (felt like a perfect ballet leap and I didn't fall), and ran to her & gave her the phone before she could climb onto the bus.
In addition to straining my back and causing a muscle to twitch on my right thigh, I know I embarrassed the hell out of her and will hear about it later.
I remember all of this every time I stand up or shift in my chair. Whatever I did to that muscle, I've never done it before and its MAD at me.

Remember Fractured Fairy Tales? I feel like the screw-up godmother. Only I don't have a wand, can't fix things, and don't see how there can be a happily ever after.

And a customer we work with told me I sounded 'official' when I answered the phone today, and didn't recognize my voice. So apparently the perky normal voice sounds unprofessional and the crying-jag-depressed-as-hell croak sounds 'official'.
But he made me feel less like crying and more like slapping someone. That's an improvement, right???

 

[AK Michelle]

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YES! It is an improvement.

I've had similar days. The good news is, this will all pass and in 20 years your muscle twitch will be gone and your daughter will have forgotten all about your ballet practice.

 

[Beth G.]

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BAT THE HELL OUTTA SOMETHING AND YOU'LL ALWAYS FEEL BETTER. EVEN IF ITS THE COUCH!

Sorry to hear about all that is going on. It's very hard being a Mom and not being able to fix everything feeling, emotion, and problem for our kids when they grow up. It definately ripps you up knowing that if they would allow you, you probably could help. But, I guess dealing with situations like this helps them cope when we aren't gong to be there when they get older. That is what I keep telling myself but, it is hard to keep my trap shut. I have a hostile household right now between DH and DD. He is her Step and she doesn't let'em forget it. They are like oil and water>>>>>>>>they don't mix!! But, I keep telling myself it could be worse. She will be graduating in June of 2011 and will be off to college before we know it. That too scares me even though the stressers in the household should make me feel better about it but, they don't.

Chin up Wegots!!

 

[NellaBean]

Aw, I'm sorry girl

It can always get better....Go get yourself a nice milkshake or fruit smoothie, put your feet up and take the weekend off. Go get a pedicure with DD or go shopping or do something fun. Sit in a pile of d'uccle chicks for an hour with a glass of wine and a chicken on your head. You need to take some me-time to relax.

 

[wegotchickens]

Thanks ya'll

Nella, I got the chicks for sure. And I do spend time with them every evening.
And tonight I am scheduled to go to a Pampered Chef party with a friend. I really don't feel up to being social. But the friend I'm going with has dealt with me being a space cadet since Kerry died, so I know she actually won't be surprised and she'll understand. And she'll laugh when she hears about my pirouette (sp?).
And there's stuff we've been talking about getting for the house, so I know DH will happily fund a shopping trip.

Beth G., I know exactly what you're dealing with on the step & DD issues. Normally we have the oil/water thing at my house too. The daughter I lost was the one that 'got' DH's sarcastic sense of humor. CJ takes him way too seriousy. He's being exceptionally quiet and supportive right now. I suspect we'll pay for it later.

Michelle, Alleve is my favorite drug of all time. The muscle is placated, as is the sciatic back, for now. I think I will break out my secret stash of muscle relaxers and take one when I get back from the PC party. It will leave me strung out tomorrow, but I desperately need to sleep. I think I'd be less teary-eyed if I was actually resting.



And then again, maybe not. A year ago today I still had 2 daughters. And I never knew how badly one was spiraling out of control until it was too late. She'd have been a senior this year....

I'm glad I took a few days off next week. I wish I'd taken today off, too.

Monday I'm dying a showgirl purple. That ought to clinch the insanity defense if I slap the band director for making CJ sad(er). And seeing a purple chicken when she gets home from school will make her smile.
I don't know if slapping the band director will make her smile. But I'm willing to chance it if the arrogant, heartless POS makes her cry again....

 

[wegotchickens]

DH is going to be sooooo disappointed. I can only come up with 11 chickens I'm willing to take to the sale, and 2 I'm on the fence about.

64 - 11= 53 which is still a heck of a lot of chickens.
All I'm doing is opening space so I can rearrange them again.
And I have 3 broodies on eggs that will hatch on Monday

He doesn't know that yet....

 

[AK Michelle]

I have a feeling there will be some chicken dying going on at my house too. Last time we dyed her green, but it didn't hold very well. Orange worked much better. I'm not sure what color my daughter wants her to be this time, but I'm improving my color mixing skills, I'll post photos on Monday and we can compare.