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If it weren't for me and boo this thread would have been to page 3 by now.
Ok, so I'm doing the "Get Gretch Better" improvements...I've had my last dental exam to fix my cavities and old silver fillings that were flaking and replacing them. I can't tell you how much strength that took to have what was it? like 5 visits to get it all done? Plus anxiety meds... I have a deep seated fear of the dental chair and the drill....I was suffocated as a child by a dentist because I didn't want to put the mask on because I didn't like how it made me feel. I was then tortured by an orthodontist 7th grade for a year. My mom's new dental guy says to her that that guy was a hack and he's trying to fix my mom's teeth that the other guy messed up...she had braces on the same time as me. Mom was in miserable pain a lot when I was a kid because of her teeth and what he was doing to them...and she totally didn't question him. So anyway.... I made it.
My teeth are pretty and I intend on them staying that way. I never had too many problems with oral care up until my heart attack and the Meneire's syndrome and being placed on diuretics, which apparently dry my mouth out and let bacteria sit. So I am to drink more water and chew gum with sorbitol and brush and floss more frequently. Suppose I can become all OCD in that department...why not?
Sooo anyway...now I'm cleaning house. I get to feeling faint sometimes lately. So I know when it is I have to slow down or take a rest. I've been feeling kinda icky and feeling my PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) more lately again. I'm getting a sore throat like my girls have...maybe that's part of it. I woke myself up the other night and I think I was doing a sleep apnea thing? I never used to snore but my dd told me she heard me snore. So I told her next time she hears me to wake me up. If I didn't feel like I was out of breathe the other night, I don't know if I would have really thought it was true. I mean, like if I have a cold or something....I can see it happening... At any rate, funny thing is, my dentist asked me if I have sleep apnea cuz it can make you gain weight and have heart issues...and since I don't really have a strong family history of heart troubles... he thought maybe it was something to look in to. So anyway, I get to cleaning today and I eat a nice healthy breakfast---which is another "Get Gretch Better" step since I usually skip it---but I hit a wall and get so dang sleepy again. It's the sleepy that overwhelms me and it's like I can't function. Kind of like the sleepy I had before they diagnosed me with hypothyroidism.
So I know what this means...visit my dr. again. Though I have yet to make the apt. she ordered for me to do this other test on why I keep choking--since my sis was just diagnosed with barret's disease...and my sis told me she thought it sounded like i had hiatal hernia like she has...if I choke on drinks, food...it just gets stuck in the middle of my throat. So fine...now that I'm done with Ava's procedure...I'll get back to taking care of my own. I'll talk to the dr. again about the tiredness and snoring and feeling faint...and yucky.
I also have a meeting with my "d" lawyer on tues. to go over more things. I'd like to be able to say I'm not stressed out but I'd be lieing. My dentist says I don't need this stress with my current health condition and I agree with him. But what are you gonna do? sigh.
ok....so I may take pics of my home before and after Like batty did. You all will crap your pants....I may even surprise dac, but he's been here before but when people have been here...that usually means I cleaned for a few hours before hand...it gets worse the days after anyone leaves. My spark that's lit the fire is I'm puppy sitting for a dear friend all of next week...starting the 2nd. So I've got to get moving. The difference now is that I NEED it to stay clean and can't back slip. I joke with myself and when a mess happens, I think, well, maybe I'll just keep going this way and then they'll have to call hoarders to come dig me out and help me clean. I know that's wrong. I have felt very overwhelmed by it all most my life and it stems from my mom and dad being "collecters" and when I watch those shows and they say, well something bad happened and I have a lot of bad and I can totally empathize and say, see, Gretch...you're not alone. People get depressed and don't care and let things go...but I refuse to get any worse than it is and I know it's not healthy for me or my kids. It's depressing, is what it is.
I have them cleaning thier rooms right now and at first they were upset about it but they made it into a game....they are using the tent tunnel to travel and clean...hey, what ever works. I'm just glad they aren't bugging me anymore while I clean.
I had them assist for a while to pick up what they helped mess. They took the games and books from the living room and put them all back into the library in the shelves and cabinets. They took hair ties and brushes and tooth care items they got from their dad's stocking and put all that stuff away in the bathroom and out of the living room. And next year I am sooo getting my Christmas tree out in a timely manner because you would NOT BELIEVE the pine needles I'm sweeping up. I have a 50 lb. dog food bag that's full of pine needles right now. And my mom bought me laundry soap so I'm back to catching up on my laundry and she helped me for an hour or so yesterday and did my dishes. I've still got a LOT to go.
I know you guys are thoroughly disgusted *at me* with your very tidy selves, but I know you love me anyway and will cheer me on.
Ok, so I'm doing the "Get Gretch Better" improvements...I've had my last dental exam to fix my cavities and old silver fillings that were flaking and replacing them. I can't tell you how much strength that took to have what was it? like 5 visits to get it all done? Plus anxiety meds... I have a deep seated fear of the dental chair and the drill....I was suffocated as a child by a dentist because I didn't want to put the mask on because I didn't like how it made me feel. I was then tortured by an orthodontist 7th grade for a year. My mom's new dental guy says to her that that guy was a hack and he's trying to fix my mom's teeth that the other guy messed up...she had braces on the same time as me. Mom was in miserable pain a lot when I was a kid because of her teeth and what he was doing to them...and she totally didn't question him. So anyway.... I made it.
My teeth are pretty and I intend on them staying that way. I never had too many problems with oral care up until my heart attack and the Meneire's syndrome and being placed on diuretics, which apparently dry my mouth out and let bacteria sit. So I am to drink more water and chew gum with sorbitol and brush and floss more frequently. Suppose I can become all OCD in that department...why not?
Sooo anyway...now I'm cleaning house. I get to feeling faint sometimes lately. So I know when it is I have to slow down or take a rest. I've been feeling kinda icky and feeling my PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) more lately again. I'm getting a sore throat like my girls have...maybe that's part of it. I woke myself up the other night and I think I was doing a sleep apnea thing? I never used to snore but my dd told me she heard me snore. So I told her next time she hears me to wake me up. If I didn't feel like I was out of breathe the other night, I don't know if I would have really thought it was true. I mean, like if I have a cold or something....I can see it happening... At any rate, funny thing is, my dentist asked me if I have sleep apnea cuz it can make you gain weight and have heart issues...and since I don't really have a strong family history of heart troubles... he thought maybe it was something to look in to. So anyway, I get to cleaning today and I eat a nice healthy breakfast---which is another "Get Gretch Better" step since I usually skip it---but I hit a wall and get so dang sleepy again. It's the sleepy that overwhelms me and it's like I can't function. Kind of like the sleepy I had before they diagnosed me with hypothyroidism.
So I know what this means...visit my dr. again. Though I have yet to make the apt. she ordered for me to do this other test on why I keep choking--since my sis was just diagnosed with barret's disease...and my sis told me she thought it sounded like i had hiatal hernia like she has...if I choke on drinks, food...it just gets stuck in the middle of my throat. So fine...now that I'm done with Ava's procedure...I'll get back to taking care of my own. I'll talk to the dr. again about the tiredness and snoring and feeling faint...and yucky.
I also have a meeting with my "d" lawyer on tues. to go over more things. I'd like to be able to say I'm not stressed out but I'd be lieing. My dentist says I don't need this stress with my current health condition and I agree with him. But what are you gonna do? sigh.
ok....so I may take pics of my home before and after Like batty did. You all will crap your pants....I may even surprise dac, but he's been here before but when people have been here...that usually means I cleaned for a few hours before hand...it gets worse the days after anyone leaves. My spark that's lit the fire is I'm puppy sitting for a dear friend all of next week...starting the 2nd. So I've got to get moving. The difference now is that I NEED it to stay clean and can't back slip. I joke with myself and when a mess happens, I think, well, maybe I'll just keep going this way and then they'll have to call hoarders to come dig me out and help me clean. I know that's wrong. I have felt very overwhelmed by it all most my life and it stems from my mom and dad being "collecters" and when I watch those shows and they say, well something bad happened and I have a lot of bad and I can totally empathize and say, see, Gretch...you're not alone. People get depressed and don't care and let things go...but I refuse to get any worse than it is and I know it's not healthy for me or my kids. It's depressing, is what it is.
I have them cleaning thier rooms right now and at first they were upset about it but they made it into a game....they are using the tent tunnel to travel and clean...hey, what ever works. I'm just glad they aren't bugging me anymore while I clean.
I had them assist for a while to pick up what they helped mess. They took the games and books from the living room and put them all back into the library in the shelves and cabinets. They took hair ties and brushes and tooth care items they got from their dad's stocking and put all that stuff away in the bathroom and out of the living room. And next year I am sooo getting my Christmas tree out in a timely manner because you would NOT BELIEVE the pine needles I'm sweeping up. I have a 50 lb. dog food bag that's full of pine needles right now. And my mom bought me laundry soap so I'm back to catching up on my laundry and she helped me for an hour or so yesterday and did my dishes. I've still got a LOT to go.
I know you guys are thoroughly disgusted *at me* with your very tidy selves, but I know you love me anyway and will cheer me on.
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