I AM SOOOOOO SORRY about Suede. It is nice to share a bond with others that are passionate about their feathered friends. I have a chicken who has almost recovered from bocholisim but is still blind so the other chickens beat her up. She is very reliant on me and now lives in my house. Everyone makes fun of me and says to kill her....she is just a chicken, but I just can't. I am praying she gets her sight back someday, but until then she is a house chicken. I understand the attachment to them. Hope you all get through this tough time.