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Well then...
I just had a total stress-out-too-much-pressure and an I-feel-so-alone moment at the same time, something inside me snapped, and then I cried for a good ten minutes.
I just don't know how much longer I can take all this. School and crap, and on top of that mom's wedding, and on top of that my stepdad wants me to finish my hunting exam. It's just all too much for me... and it is really dragging me down. I have to finish my booklets by monday and have only done one, on top of that I have to seriously clean out my room (like, take everything out and put it all back in) tomorrow and on Sunday I'm probably going to my fathers, and he has no computers. So I'm... pretty much screwed. And I feel very alone... so very alone. I don't know why, but it seems like some people really depend on me to remember a bunch of stuff and then my 'friends' expect me to always listen to their 'problems' when they don't even listen to stuff that I need to let go of(not talking about you, Poppy), and even though I try to listen to them and give advice best of my ability with all this insanity I'm feeling right now, sometimes I'll end up screeching: "Well you know what, you're not the only one with problems!!! There are people that are out there starving, a school in Afghanistan that's bombed by nuclear rockets almost every day, and a Pakistanian girl who was shot for standing up for girl's education rights! So don't act like you're the only one who has issues - because you're NOT!" or something along the lines of "You know what, I shouldn't give a crap because when I need to let it all out you never, ever listen to me!!!" and then they get mad and ditch me entirely, and I didn't even mean what I said. Today sucked, that's all I'm gonna say about it.
I just had a total stress-out-too-much-pressure and an I-feel-so-alone moment at the same time, something inside me snapped, and then I cried for a good ten minutes.
I just don't know how much longer I can take all this. School and crap, and on top of that mom's wedding, and on top of that my stepdad wants me to finish my hunting exam. It's just all too much for me... and it is really dragging me down. I have to finish my booklets by monday and have only done one, on top of that I have to seriously clean out my room (like, take everything out and put it all back in) tomorrow and on Sunday I'm probably going to my fathers, and he has no computers. So I'm... pretty much screwed. And I feel very alone... so very alone. I don't know why, but it seems like some people really depend on me to remember a bunch of stuff and then my 'friends' expect me to always listen to their 'problems' when they don't even listen to stuff that I need to let go of(not talking about you, Poppy), and even though I try to listen to them and give advice best of my ability with all this insanity I'm feeling right now, sometimes I'll end up screeching: "Well you know what, you're not the only one with problems!!! There are people that are out there starving, a school in Afghanistan that's bombed by nuclear rockets almost every day, and a Pakistanian girl who was shot for standing up for girl's education rights! So don't act like you're the only one who has issues - because you're NOT!" or something along the lines of "You know what, I shouldn't give a crap because when I need to let it all out you never, ever listen to me!!!" and then they get mad and ditch me entirely, and I didn't even mean what I said. Today sucked, that's all I'm gonna say about it.
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