poured in my life can't it stop? Dads Gone9/25/10Gmas Gone10/31/10

[chickeypoo]

oh she was fiesty. LOL. i loved beign around her. i learned a lot from her. she was a good woman.

 

[Kyhen]

So sorry for your loss. I know that you have been through alot in the last few weeks.

 

[chickeypoo]

well, tomorrow is my birthday. I have realized that there will be no later in the day goofy phone call from him saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOOOOZAAAANNNNN!" there will be no silly little card for me to open up on friday when i go down to see him and drop the kids off. There will be no more phone calls telling me what's been going on or asking how i have been. He will not be calling me the second i walk out of work just to bug me. There will not be any questions being asked of me about the kids.. He seemed to be the only one who asked how they were. Concerned over how the middle one was in the hospital and if she was doing better.. while he himself was suffering so badly. he is no longer there to watch them when i just need to get away from the kids for a while. he is no longer there for me to call upon to talk with.. get my frustrations out.

I will be 29 tomorrow. I miss my dad.

 

[sfw2]

Hon, he's still there, just not where you can see him.

Try to have a happy birthday.

 

[3goodeggs]

Happy birthday, chickie poo! It takes a while to get out from under the gloom, but it will happen. One day the memories will be brighter and better. For now, all We can do is send comfort and understanding.

 

[Toast n Jelly]

It's really tough. Hang in there and many more and happier birthdays for you.

 

[chickeypoo]

this weekend we had to clean up the garage so we could get the car in it.. and while cleaning it up there was so much to remind me of my dad.. the dresser we took just days before he was diagnosed.. the cook book he gave me.. his sledge hammer and double headed ax.. then the stuff after he was dianosed.. his tv, his movies, his dvd player, the toys for the kids.. it was hard.. now, the tv is in my dining room.. waiting to be taken into my oldest DD's room. i just feel blah again. this last weekend with thanksgiving was just rough..

 

[sfw2]

 

[3goodeggs]

 

[chickeypoo]

one more death in the family. My mom called me friday, as im getting ready for our work Christmas party, to tell me that a cousin passed away. He was a couple years younger than my mom i believe. Well, they found him friday but he had passed on thursday. When i stayed in utah for a month and a half he and i spent most of our time together. He was a great person. But with his size i believe it may have been a heart attack. He was probably one of the biggest guys i knew. anyway, thoughts and prayers to the families once again. oh and to make matters worse.. his parents had just left on a cruise on friday morning.