poured in my life can't it stop? Dads Gone9/25/10Gmas Gone10/31/10

As if my family isn't wonderful enough as it was...(insert sarcasm there)... Yesterday was my Gma's birthday. I got there with a card... since she doesn't really need anything and we had just gotten her a bunch of flowers last weekend. I saw that there was another card there, and some flowers in a pot. I read the card.. nice.. real nice. it has my brothers name, his wifes, their childnrens, my sisters, and her hubbies, their childrens, and get this.. all the dogs... but lo and behold my name and my families names, seem to be missing off the card. I asked my sis in law who gave her the pot of flowers, i was just wondering and i recieved no response. SO, long story short, They bought her flowers, and a card and decided to leave my name off it to make me look bad just in case i didn't get down there to give her a card. well, poo on them. make me feel like crap.
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i am so sick of all this. i can't wait to just get this all done and over with. I have already decided that once my gma does pass, and once they are buried and my aunt and uncle go back to Nevada.. i am done with the rest of them. I am so sick and tired of hurting so much inside.. they don't give a rip about me, just like to make me feel like an outsider. they never thought to ask me to chip in for the flowers? i would have. she likes flowers. duh.. that's why i bought her a vase and would bring her flowers throughout the spring and summer.

It bothered me so much i cried all the way home.. my heart aches so much with the anger that all this gives me. can't treat me like a person?
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thanks alot.. i thought family was supposed to be there for each other.. sis tells me to keep in touch? forget that.. they can't even stop by my house to tell me that they are doing this or that for dad's funeral or they are going to the funeral home so we can decide on everything. i had no say in any of that stuff. i was left out. and i was talking to a friend about it and someone else over heard and told my brother.. and instead of asking me about it.. he goes around and asks other people if i was complaining to them.. i wasn't really complaining.. just stating the obvious. I wasn't told of anything that pertained to dad until after the fact. can't he see with his own eyes that i am being left out? i dunno. like i said.. ill be glad when this is said and done. my married family treats me like a human that's actually a part of the family. treats me like im blood and not just married in.

i dunno if my brother and sister are treating me like this cuz im not fully related.. cuz my mom is a different mom.. i always thought dad raised us as real brother and sisters.. guess i was wrong when i posted that. Glad they proved me wrong on that one before i got too involved with them again. ah the joys of family.

my mom went to see my gma last night too. it bothered my mom though that she didn't have a room with a view. it's kind of funny that my mom goes to see my gma.. it's my mom's ex b/fs mom LOL... but they were close. and im glad. the rest of my dad's family.. is not good.

anyway.. i'm just writing to let out frustrations. im exhausted with emotions and just.. sick of it all.
 
I am so sorry that you are going through all this. I have recently discovered that I need to avoid my family of origin. It is a painful process to even think about. I do know that it is often the hardest and yet the healthiest thing we can do for ourselves.
 
My dad's Funeral is next week. I dunno if i am ready to say goodbye. My aunt and uncle are comign from Nevada. i dunno.. i think this whole process is going to be more than i can take. ugh. i haven't been sleeping well, and on top of it .. im getting a cold. Thanks alot DH. ugh.
 
chick P, you do not have to say goodbye. I would write my grandfather letters and file them away. It takes time. Funerals are strange things. They are for those of us left here. You have said goodbye to him in the hospital. you know he is gone. but he is still with you isn't he? he will be with you when you least expect him to make you smile or remember a secret fishing spot. He is in your veins and it will never really be good bye.
Love is magic. love forgives and love stays. love goes from you to your daughters, and it rolls through like a river. it never goes away. it is just fresher water.
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I bought myself a very nice dress for my grandfather's funeral. It was a lovely blue floral. he would have liked it. what would your dad like to see you in?
Do not worry about the relatives that just did not 'get' the relationship that you had with your dad, It was not theirs, it was yours. that is a special thing. do not let petty family envy mess it up. Smile, behave as he would want you to. Know that you have the power to make it horrible, or let it slide. And, sometimes, sorry, but there are people who think that you letting it slide means they just have to try harder to get your goat and push those buttons... well, as someone who finally managed to ignore those buttons, Let me tell you, once they realize they do not work anymore, it just drives them nuts!
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rise above the family stuff and remember your dad well.
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well, i have just about everythign made. my hand mixer took a poop on me in the middle of making something so that was frustrating. thankfully it was the last thing that needed it lol.

i wanted to update on my Gma. the docs have said that she could go at anytime now. her breathing is such a strain on her heart. so here's hoping that she stays until after this weekend.. so she can spend time with two of her children that will be comign tonight.
 

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